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First Chief Justice of the US Supreme Court
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My 5th Great Grand Father John Jay

My 5th Great Grandfather John Jay (see picture above) was appointed by President George Washington to be the first Chief Justice of the United States Supreme Court. He was also the Ambassador to Spain, and a signatory of the Treaty of Paris. He was also the 2nd Governor of New York; and later became the Secretary of Foreign Affairs. I never knew! Wow!

Sarah Livingston Jay
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Wife of John Jay

Sarah Livingston Jay, was the wife of John Jay. They had many children together. Of her direct descendants, Elizabeth Livingston Ludlow was the mother of Anna Hall Roosevelt (Grandmother of Eleanor Roosevelt) former First Lady and wife of Franklin D. Roosevelt (President of the United States). 

Ever wonder which States have the highest numbers of sex offenders? You might be surprised. Our Police need to do more to control these perverts. I just looked at the list and yelled "AAaahhhh!!!!" after seeing Colorado at number 10. OMG!!!

Aaahh!! Perverts live here???
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Click here to see if your State made the top-10 list.

New Playground at Memorial Park
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Not so nice for kids

Colorado Springs Parks and Recreation spent a lot of money building a new playground on the west side of Prosperity Lake. We took our grandson there today so he could play on the new playground. There are also picnic areas and tables there as well. We brought lunch to eat while we were there. While we were eating lunch with our grandson; a 30 year old intoxicated African-American man, with a younger African-American female were talking at the same picnic area we were at. The man was trying to convince the young girl to give up her existing pimp to join him instead. The man was using extremely loud profanity, describing the female genitals, and sexual terminology in front of the children and other adults there with their children. He was even drinking a bottle of whiskey, even though consuming alcohol at the park is illegal. The girl was crying and telling the man to leave her alone, but he wanted to strongly urge her that she was making a mistake by staying with her pimp. Clearly this was an inappropriate place to be discussing such a topic. I finally got up and asked several of the other mothers there watching their children, and hearing the filth the man was saying in front of their kids; why they were not saying anything to the man; and they all had this look of disgust, but also fear of saying anything. The park used to be a nice place to take children. Not any more. Even the Colorado Springs Police don't have a roving officer to keep things like this from happening. If the city is going to spend so much money on a brand new playground, just to let it be overrun by pimps and prostitutes; what was the point? Poor people here have no other place to take their kids. The other parents said "The cops don't do anything anyway." We decided to go to the other side of the lake, thinking it would be safer; but we saw older men masturbating in public while watching little girls playing. We decided to just leave. We will not be taking our grandson there again. We also told our grandson that these bad men are not normal; and to forget what they were saying and doing. Where are our Police? Why are they not posting an officer or two in this very public place? Colorado is not as nice as people think. Its getting as bad as Skid-row in South LA. We could sure use God's help here. It's called Memorial Park because of the beautiful Armed Services Memorials there as well. There is a beautiful church nearby that has bells that play songs at certain times of the day. Yet a mere few hundred yards away, you can see perverts, pedophiles, pimps, prostitutes with liquor, hanging around the children's playground; with no Police presence. It's summer time, and the kids deserve a nice safe place to play.

Do you know why orphans and former orphans feel better talking to other former orphans; its because they speak the same language. Many of the people working with CPS and Social Services have absolutely no idea what's going through the mind of an orphan. Orphans have had to ask an adult for the basics like shampoo, toothpaste, or deodorant; shaving cream or a razor to shave with. In a normal environment, parents usually have these items for their children to use as they please. Not orphans. These items might be used to harm someone or themselves, and must be controlled. There will be tons of apprehension; and a multitude of questions like how will they survive once they age out of the system. Many orphans will have no connections, no families; and no support network to rely on. Many will not have the educational background to apply for college either, since orphans are most likely to be pushed aside in a school environment. How are they supposed to survive? Their options are extremely limited. How would you react if you were suddenly kicked out of the only home (albeit a terrible home) you've ever known? This is the system that exist today. State and Federal Governments can do so much more for these kids. It would not take too many resources either. But they have to want to do this. Don't just kick these kids out on the street. They will have no choice but to do what they must to survive. For girls this usually means prostitution; and for boys it usually means criminal activities such as drug dealing. What else can they do without an education? if there was a support system for these kids, the success rate would be much higher. My husband and I have tried to help as many orphans who have aged out of the system, by helping them find a job, affordable housing, and reliable transportation; drivers licenses, among other things; but most importantly, we show them that we care, and that they are not alone. We show them the love they haven't known before. It doesn't cost anything to show love to an orphan; and it definitely brings a smile to their faces. Why can't our government or our churches help more? The government doesn't care, and many churches are too busy funding the lavish lifestyles of their pastors. We've actually seen stories of military families moving to another base and leaving their teenagers behind with nothing, because the child had run away. These kids wind up homeless, wandering the streets, and fall prey to corrupt individuals or organizations. They have no other place to turn to. As a safe-house on the military base, many of the worst kids ended up at my house; looking for nothing more than love. So what did we do? We showed them love.

Our Government, and more importantly President Barak Obama have finally pushed our veterans to the brink of revolution. His most recent debacle involves the labeling of combat veterans (like my husband) as incapable of possessing any amount of rational thinking; and that veterans are more likely to have mental illnesses that should prohibit them from possessing a weapon. Really??? Really?? Our veterans were trained in the proper use of weapons better than any other citizen in the US. Now suddenly, they're are no longer able to control themselves??? Where did this come from?? Who's idea was this? But the really weird part of this is that the Obama Administration is offering a solution. The solution for veterans, is that they can buy back their 2nd Amendment right by giving up their Veteran's Benefits. Really??? All the more reason to impeach Obama and his entire cabinet.  

Click here to see this ludicrous idea.

Here is a Biblical reminder and warning to the Duggar Family men:

Matthew 18:6 But whoso shall offend one of these little ones which believe in me, it were better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and that he were drowned in the depth of the sea.

Matthew 18:10 “See that you do not despise one of these little ones. For I tell you that their angels in heaven always see the face of my Father in heaven.

The Duggar men (Josh and Jim Bob) have despised and offended the little ones (girls), so why haven't they hung a millstone around their necks and been drowned in the depths of the sea? These verses clearly show that Jesus believes that child molesters need to be put to death. There is no question about Jesus' message.

Many of you may say that Jesus was all about forgiveness; but Jesus also said to follow the laws of Caesar just as you follow the laws of God. That's right.... follow the law. Child Molesters are certainly not following the laws of God or man when they commit their vile acts. Place the millstone around their necks, and drown them. This is the law of God. Jim Bob Duggar knows the Bible well enough to understand that these incidents should not have been covered up. Amen!!!

Psychiatry and Mental Health services for teens here in Colorado is big business. Especially catering to children of Military personnel here in Colorado. The military Healthcare insurance pays approximately $1000 per day for inpatient treatment. Too many military parents of teens experiencing emotional issues are quickly diagnosed with various mental illnesses, when in reality, the teens are just being teens. While my husband and I were in the military here in Colorado; our own teenage daughter started displaying mood swings, which is very common in teen girls. We took her to Cedar Springs Behavioral Center. The psychiatrist there immediately diagnosed our daughter with Bipolar Disorder within 5 minutes of meeting her; and recommended immediate inpatient treatment. We suspected that our daughter was simply experiencing what we refer to as "PMS," or "Poor Me Syndrome." To make a long story shorter; we ultimately refused bipolar treatment for our daughter, and after filing a medical ethics complaint against the psychiatrist; he fled Colorado. Our daughter is fine today, and like many other parents of teens, we simply worked with her to help her understand her moods. Diagnosing a teenager with Bipolar Disorder in a 5 minute meeting just doesn't make medical sense. Cedar Springs is still in operation here, but with far fewer military teenage patients. We stood our ground and refused to allow our teen to be labeled with this serious mental problem. Scientifically, there is no actual documented diagnosis for Bipolar Disorder; so any time your teen gets diagnosed with this, you should question it immediately. I hope everyone has a good weekend. I'm off to spend the day with my grandson.

I don't want all of you to get sick reading all of these stories of abuse, but here is one more. An 8-month old boy was being babysit by a 23 year old young man. He was separated from his girlfriend in South Carolina; and already lost custody of two of his own children. Of course he didn't share these awful details with the mother of the 8-month old. When the mother left for an appointment, the young man had to deal with the 8-month old when he cried due to a wet diaper. The young man, angered because he had to stop playing video games; grabbed the 8-month old, and shook him violently, then dropped him on the floor on his head. The baby immediately went unconscious, and the young man quickly became nervous for what he had done, and called the child's mother with a story that the baby had fallen out of his crib. He ran to the neighbors asking for help; all of whom wanted to beat him up. 911 was called and the baby was taken to the hospital. He was in a coma for 3 days, and diagnosed with Shaken Baby Syndrome. He had blood pooling behind his eyes. After a week, the doctors were able to treat the baby well enough to allow him to go home with his mother. Of course the hospital called the Police, and they investigated the mother (who wasn't even home when the incident happened) and the young man. The mother was charged with neglect and endangerment. The young man was given a lie detector test, which he failed. But he was never charged with any crime against the child. He was the only one at the apartment when the baby was hurt. Some of the Police Detectives here are clueless. The evidence against the young man was overwhelming, yet the Police simply closed the case because as they said, the Lie Detector Test couldn't be used against him. Really?? The 8-month old is now 24 months old, and still suffers from the effects of this assault. He has to go for eye test regularly, and still can't talk. His head is permanently misshapen. All because a young man didn't want to be bothered and interrupted from his video game. The young man is planning to marry another woman, who has 4 kids of her own. I'm sure he hasn't told this woman what he did to the 8-month old. The Police claim there is nothing they can do. This is the system we have to deal with. So sad! The mother of the 8-month old refuses to allow anyone to watch her son, other than her own parents. Its not just the child who was permanently changed from this. The mother was also permanently changed. Sadly there are thousands of stories just like this happening all over Colorado. I know that every state has its share of similar stories as well.

In some places here in the United States; there are needless obstacles placed in front of orphan caregivers. Colorado is an example of this. Colorado doesn't have very high standards when it comes to becoming a foster parent. Pretty much anyone can be a foster parent. Our family met such a foster family a while back. They laughingly admitted to molesting and abusing foster children, by having sex in front of these kids, urinating on these kids; kicking some of the disabled kids. Their own 4 year old child ended up in a mental health facility here in Colorado, and tried to burn the place down. One of the child's grandparents was having a homosexual affair in front of the child. This family was eventually discovered, and they've since fled Colorado, and started being foster parents in Louisiana. But Colorado also gives up on some orphans, especially physically and mentally disabled orphans. A doctor friend of ours previously treated an extremely disabled child who was born blind, deaf and with major heart defects. Colorado decided not to spend the money to keep this little girl alive. The doctor found out about this, and decided to adopt the little girl. She's now had life-saving surgery, and she can now see and hear, she is in the care of a loving family. Colorado really doesn't seem to care. Even the Police tend to overreact about even the smallest of things. It's a "Shoot first, ask questions later," mentality; or "Bang - then Freeze" later. Especially the Police Officers who are small and short. These guys really have a bad case of Napoleon Syndrome. Two Police Officers came to my house one day, and one of them began shoving me and yelling at me, because he was having a bad day. I called my husband in Iraq, and he spoke with the officers. The officers asked my husband what they could do for us, and my husband told him; "You can leave." the officers left immediately. Despite the beauty of Colorado, we have our dark clouds here too. We have child abusers here. We have abusers caring for disabled people. Colorado knows this, but really doesn't do much about it. If you know of cases or individuals abusing children here in Colorado, we ask that you contact Ms. Marian Percy at DHS. She is very sincere in wanting to help kids. It took us 10,000 emails and phone calls for us to find Ms. Percy; but once we did, she acted quickly. Had we not decided to become orphan advocates here, it is very likely that the orphans we've helped would have fallen through the cracks. We've been here in Colorado for 19 years, and have helped 1000's of at-risk orphans. You too can make a difference in the life of an orphan. Someone will need to carry the torch when I'm gone. Some of the kids I've helped turned to evil after they left my care; but to this day, I can pick up the phone to talk to them, and they all respect me. The system here in Colorado is a long way from being functional, but with people like Ms. Percy, it is getting better. All of the donations I get are used to care for orphans. I keep good records on everything. Many orphans I've helped returned years later to ask for pictures of themselves when they were younger. Again, I keep records of everything. Some of the pregnant girls I've helped brought their babies to me to watch because they were having issues, and couldn't take care of them. I gladly helped them, and told them to come back when they got cleaned up.

Ever notice the correlation between the numbers of young gang members; and the lack of stable parents? These youngsters are looking for a sense of family, albeit a dysfunctional one. A lot of orphans end up in gangs because they don't have families. This is where the old phrase used to refer to orphans came from "A prison cell with your name on it." There are good orphans out there. Even professionals, such as Pope Francis who were orphans, and did not let their lives be controlled by gangs. Even I was approached by gangs when I was younger. I decided to help gang members get out of gangs and turn their lives around; instead of becoming a gang member. Many of these kids moral compass simply didn't work. They need to be pushed in the right direction. There is no support system out there to help these kids. Once these kids start out with petty crimes; the judges they stand in front of, have limited options as well. Whatever happened to Boot Camps for troubled teens? Boot Camps had a high success rate, but now you just don't see them anymore. Once a kid enters the criminal justice system, they will ultimately end up in prison. Rehabilitation is not a high priority in prison. Even in Juvenile Detention Centers, the adult caretakers end up sexually abusing the kids there. So what is the solution? Local and State governments must commit the resources for after school support facilities such as the Boys and Girls Club, among other resources. Outreach programs with caring vetted staff can go to these children to follow up with them. These methods have been proven to work; if the resources are there. One of the DHS staff here was told by me that one of the girls they require to undergo weekly drug testing, would tape a device to her thigh when it was time for her to pee. Even after informing the DHS staff; she is still allowed un-observed drug tests. I found out that many of the DHS staff are themselves former drug addicts or alcoholics. Several must use alcohol detection ignition devices on their cars. Why would DHS use these staff to advice at-risk youth? Just look at the show "19 and Counting" scandal. We're all seeing the Duggar Family defend the molester, and ignore the victims. Where is their moral compass pointing? Its pointing to hell. As a former victim myself, I know how devastating this can be. I know how I felt when I tried telling an adult when it started happening, and I was called a liar. I was told that no one would believe me. It took my whole life to prove this. Of course, now everyone believes me. A Federal Judge believed me too, by ruling in my favor. Lets wake up and see things for what they are. Stop defending child molesters. Let's help these kids. After all, they are our future. My new book will be out soon. I encourage everyone following my story to get a copy. The story isn't over yet. All of the Police, Judges; lawyers out there need to wake up and do the right things for orphans and children. As you can see from the Duggar Family trying to do damage control; as well as Mega-Church pastors fleecing their flocks; people shouldn't take things at face value. There is always a dark side. Bad things don't just happen to bad people; they also happen to good people too; even good children. I was a good child, and every bad thing possible happened to me. Trust in the Lord our God. God told me to talk, and that's all I'm doing. Hopefully people will listen. This is real.

Carolyn in Alexandria Egypt
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prior to visiting an orphanage

We have so many Federal Days named after so many things. Why can't we have a National Orphan Day? This would be a day dedicated to the betterment and furthering of the orphans plight. A day where everyone in the US could do something for an orphan. Imagine the difference this would make in the life of a forgotten orphan. Or to remember an orphan who died alone, afraid and forgotten. God would be happy to see so much love for the forgotten ones; the orphans.

Here are some startling statistics regarding orphans here in the USA.

Sadly; politicians and civic leaders rarely address this critical issue. They're busy trying to remove God from every facet of daily life. We all need to grow and renew our faith in God, for it is God who makes all things possible. An overwhelming majority of these orphans are destined for a prison cell without a loving, caring environment to grow in. The huge business of prisons and prisoners has a huge profit attraction for too many politicians; so they have no incentive to try to reduce the numbers of prisoners. As sad as it is, most American's are more interested in watching the Kardashians, than to worry about American orphans. What has happened to us all?
Now with many illegal children crossing into the US (thanks to Obama), these number will grow dramatically. Remember what God says about orphans:

Arabic: "معاملة اليتيم فلا قسوة" (القرآن الكريم 93: 9)   
English: (Job 29:12) Because I delivered the poor who cried for help, and the orphan who had no helper.

God keeps the orphans in a special place in his heart. We should all realize this. If we remove God from our daily life; then the orphans will also be removed from our thoughts.

In the Quran, orphans are mentioned 23 times. In the Bible, orphans are mentioned 33 times. Orphans are mentioned 25 times in the Torah. So why are orphans treated so badly? Ask Pastor Rick Warren what he thinks about orphans. You might be surprised what he has to say.

Also, grandparents should be allowed to be considered an option for children whose parents are unfit. Because some states don't allow this; bloodlines are being erased. As an orphan myself, it would've been great to be allowed to stay with my grandparents; instead of being placed in a State Home; or being stolen. Government knows that poor families are vulnerable; and are easy targets for CPS and DHS to manipulate, and separate. I was repeatedly molested and raped while in the custody of the state, and foster care. This is all about making money.
Because I delivered the poor who cried for help, And the orphan who had no helper. - See more at: http://bible.knowing-jesus.com/topics/Orphans#sthash.qNIQYH3n.dpuf
Because I delivered the poor who cried for help, And the orphan who had no helper. - See more at: http://bible.knowing-jesus.com/topics/Orphans#sthash.qNIQYH3n.dpuf
Because I delivered the poor who cried for help, And the orphan who had no helper. - See more at: http://bible.knowing-jesus.com/topics/Orphans#sthash.qNIQYH3n.dpuf
    

  • Children in foster care in the U.S.:  402,378
  • Children in foster care waiting to be adopted: 101,840
  • Children entering foster care in 2013: 254,904
  • Children exiting foster care in 2013: 238,280
  • Average time in care within the foster system: 21.8 Months
  • Children “aging out” of the foster system in 2012 in FY: 23,090
  • Average age of a child waiting to be adopted:  7.7 years old
  • Number of children in care whose parental rights were terminated in FY 2013:  58,887
  • Approximate number of children adopted from foster care in FY 2013:  50,281
  • How many people it takes to make a difference in an orphan's life: 1 (you).

Many of you are parishioners at Mega-Churches around the US. Your pastors are millionaires. Rarely do these churches contribute to American Orphans. Here is what the Bible says about wealthy pastors in 1 Timothy 5:6:

1 Timothy 6:5 Constant friction among people who are depraved in mind and deprived of the truth, imagining that godliness is a means of gain. 6:6 Now there is great gain in godliness with contentment, 6:7 for we brought nothing into the world, and we cannot take anything out of the world. 6:8 But if we have food and clothing, with these we will be content. 6:9 But those who desire to be rich fall into temptation, into a snare, into many senseless and harmful desires that plunge people into ruin and destruction. 6:10 For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evils. It is through this craving that some have wandered away from the faith and pierced themselves with many pangs. 6:11 But as for you, O man of God, flee these things. Pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love, steadfastness, gentleness.

Pastor Rick Warren is the only mega-church preacher who is doing this. He takes no salary; and 99% of the money his church makes is given to charity. Why don’t the other mega-church pastors follow this example?  They have been tempted away by the money.





Because I delivered the poor who cried for help, And the orphan who had no helper. - See more at: http://bible.knowing-jesus.com/topics/Orphans#sthash.qNIQYH3n.dpuf
Because I delivered the poor who cried for help, And the orphan who had no helper. - See more at: http://bible.knowing-jesus.com/topics/Orphans#sthash.qNIQYH3n.dpuf
Because I delivered the poor who cried for help, And the orphan who had no helper. - See more at: http://bible.knowing-jesus.com/topics/Orphans#sthash.qNIQYH3n.dpuf

Here are some of the richest pastors in America. Looks like only one is doing the right thing. All of the others are fleecing their flocks.


Kenneth Copeland – Copeland Ministries

Flies around in a $17.5 Jet, lives in a $6 million lakefront mansion with a 1,500 acre campus and a private airstrip. He and his wife make over $655,000 a year in salary alone. It’s not clear whether this includes speaking fees, book royalties, and “love offerings.”

 

Creflo Dollar – World Changers Church International

Drives a Rolls-Royce and lives in a Million dollar home in Atlanta, and a 2.5 million-dollar apartment in Manhattan. Dollar will not release his salary information.

 

John Hagee – Cornerstone Church

His last released salary was nearly $1 million per year (2004). Hagee does not release his earnings anymore. 

 

Charles Blake – West Angeles Church of God in Christ

Owns a 10,000 square foot mansion in Beverly Hills (btw his congregation hails mostly from impoverished South Central LA)

His year salary is $900,000 per year.

 

Benny Hinn – Miracle Worker

In 1997 he admitted to making between $500k & $1 million dollars per year

 

Joel Osteen – Lakewood Church

Stopped taking his $200,000 salary several years ago. Makes tens of millions off of his numerous books. Joel & family live in a $10.5 million – get this – 17,000 square foot mansion. Treasures in heaven people.

 

Bishop Eddie Long – New Birth Missionary Baptist Church

Long made over $3 million in a three year period from 1997 to 2000. He drives a Bentley, and lives in a 1.4 million dollar home on 20 acres. An investigation into his non-profit showed he made more than $1 million dollars from them on top of his church income. No doubt some of that went toward his legal fees in 2011.

 

Ed Young – Fellowship Church Dot Com

Lives in a 10k square foot 1.5 million dollar home. He gets paid a cool $1 million dollars a year, plus a $240,000 parsonage allowance. That doesn’t count the royalties he makes off of his recent Sex-experiment.

 

Franklin Graham – Billy Graham Evangelistic Association

In 2008 he reportedly made 1.2 million dollars. Your father should slap your face Franklin.

 

Rick Warren – Saddleback Church

Has made tens of millions off his book sales (it could be in the hundreds). However… Warren has made so much money that in 2005 he repaid all of his 25 years of salary to the church & stopped taking any new salary. He and his wife give away 91% of their income to charity. Rick is the only one doing it right – in my opinion.

God says to tell the truth, so I'm doing what God wants. If one of the fleecers happens to be your pastor, perhaps you should rethink your commitment to him/her. Greed is one of the 7 Deadly Sins, and the root of many evils.  

Creflo Dollar fleecing the poor
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doubtful he will ever see the face of God

One of the biggest scams ever.
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Quiet! Brainwashing in progress.

Click here for YouTube Video about Pastor Creflo Dollar. I don't agree with everything the commentator says; just his comments about Pastor Dollar.

Comments from the previous YouTube commentator are disputed in this YouTube video, regarding the Lost Israelites.

Will any of the $65 million go to help the poor?
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Liar Liar, Pants on Fire!

Here is an update on Pastor Creflo Dollar fleecing his flock:

Click here to see one of the biggest scams of all time.

Megachurch Pastors corrupted by greed and money
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Jan and Paul Crouch fleecing the flock

Texas Governor Greg Abbott should be commended for his actions and efforts in trying to change the way Texas treats its orphans. He truly cares about Texas children. The former Governor Rick Perry did absolutely nothing to help Texas orphans; and even President Obama has done nothing to further the cause of American orphans. The Texas Legislature doesn't want to work with Governor Abbott on anything; especially since Greg Abbott opposes the way they all lined their pockets with taxpayer money. He represents a threat to their corrupt ways. Way to go Governor Abbott!!

This video makes me tell my husband how much I love him each and every day. CLICK HERE

We all have to keep a watchful eye out for pedophiles and perverts on the internet these days. This is just another example of the perversion. Click here. Sex Slavery is a very real problem, and its happening right here in the USA; not just Mexico. God help this poor girl.

With my granddaughters on the USAF Academy
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In front of Air Force Thunderbird Jet

Afterwards, we all went bowling and had lunch
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Live your life in the way of Christ
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God knows what's in your heart

Why is there so much hatred? Why are so many of our young people being killed. God says there is no prejudice in heaven. However, some preachers and Presidents try to foment hatred between races. Jesus says,  ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’ There is no other commandment greater than these.” Clearly this is an important commandment. So why is it ignored by so many? Why does Reverend Sharpton (and some churches) preach hatred? Why does President Obama speak after a black teen is killed by a white Police Officer; but says nothing when a white teen is killed by a black Police Officer? There is a great divide in our nation, and it goes all the way to the presidency. Follow the teachings of Christ, and this divide will get smaller. Why can't all races march together to convince others to love one another? Remember, there is no prejudice in heaven. In order to get to heaven, live your life in the way of the Lord. Amen!

"God, I'm trying to help you." Carolyn Sosbee 

When children are being abused Angels are watching
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Do not abuse a child. Not all angels are nice.

Dressing in my husbands business suit
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Its fun to play dress-up

My friends and I all dressed in our husbands suits
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We had a good time April 2015

All of my lady friends and I met our husbands for lunch; and instead of talking business, we all dressed in our husbands suits. Our husbands were shocked, but laughed, and really enjoyed lunch for a change. It was my idea; and we all had a blast. One of the other ladies will do it next time.

I want to say a few things about the terrible treatment our military veterans are being given now. My husband served for 23 years. When we were first married, it was much different. We got free dental care for the entire family; free prescriptions, and free medical care. Now, we have to pay for the dental care; pay for the prescriptions; and pay for the medical care. It takes weeks, if not months to get an appointment to be seen This is how our military veterans are being treated. Of course Medicaid (for Welfare) has no cost for medical care; $1.00 for prescriptions, and no cost for dental services. Seems a little backward doesn't it. Whatever happened to Sen. John McCain and the Armed Services Committee? Oh, I know! President Obama (military hating president) must've gotten to him. When my husband joined the military back in 1980, he was promised lifetime medical care. My husband isn't dead; but the promise made to him and 1000's of others, has died. Even if my husband tries to use the VA Healthcare System; it isn't free either; plus it took over 3 months for the VA to return his calls. With each passing day, we're seeing more and more of our benefits being taken away. We're watching other military veterans suffering and dying, due to the terrible lack of healthcare. Military veterans have given so much for their country; but our country refuses to give them what they were promised. This is not the same as entitlements such as food stamps and welfare. This is about our government lying to its veterans. One of our friends who served 12 years in the Army, is now suffering from Brain Cancer. He makes $900 per month in disability payments. He tried to apply for food stamps, and the El Paso County Food Stamp Office here in Colorado Springs told him he only qualified for $15.00 per month in food stamps. The $900 he makes in disability is used to pay his rent. So what is he supposed to eat with? He is slowly starving to death, in addition to dying from Brain Cancer. He is but one of many veterans in the same situation. Sadly, while our friend was being told he only qualified for $15.00 per month; he was standing next to an illegal immigrant family (man and woman); who was awarded $400 per month in food stamps. How ironic is that? Think really hard before you recommend to any of your loved ones to serve in our military. All they will get is heartbreak and sorrow. Tell your congressional representatives about this travesty. Have you seen the story about Chris Kyle (American Sniper) the US Navy Seal credited with the most kills in history. He was a true American Hero; and yet, President Obama didn't bother to even send his condolences to Kyle's family after he was murdered. That same President Obama who wouldn't do anything for the Kyle Family, sent his presidential condolences to a rapper who was killed in a drive-by shooting. It just goes to show everyone how much the President hates the military. I want to thank every veteran for their service and sacrifice, for our freedom.

After I provided testimony to Texas regarding the mistreatment of children at Youth City; it finally closed its doors in 2003. It also closed a painful chapter in my life, and in the lives of so many others who survived the torture of Youth City. We had hoped that the facility would be demolished, but unfortunately the stewards of the property and the compound itself had other plans. Over the last few years, the facility morphed in to various different care facilities such as a Drug Treatment Facility; Senior Care Facility, etc. As you can see from the pictures below, the transformation is dramatic. Now, with President Obama opening our borders to whoever wants to cross it; the compound is being used to house illegal immigrants. Thanks a lot President Obama. Wonder who's paying for all of this? I vote that the place be demolished. What do the rest of you think? I know that there are dead children buried there. For the living children there, it was like living in hell. This place was Satan's domain. It was pure evil. Just look at the 2011 photo. Satan lives there. Tear the place down, or turn it into a church. Ask any child who ever lived there, and they will tell you about the evil that lives there among them. 90 years of kids being abused and tortured. Satan definitely had a role to play there. I felt it, and so did many others. God took some of the lucky ones who died there; but the rest of us had to live with the evil there. It was a city of evil. Why do think it was called "Youth City." Amen.

Old Youth City Campus in 2011
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Today its being used to house Illegal Immigrants

Youth City in Driscoll Texas in the old days
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This is what it looked like when I was there

Ruth Maurie Bingham ultimately 10 kids all together. From my Biological father John Whitbeck, they had 3 children together. My older brother Wesley W. Whitbeck, me and our younger brother Tracy Leroy Whitbeck. Before my father passed away, he told me that our sister "Wendy" was not his child. If anyone out there has a photograph of John Warren Whitbeck of San Antonio, please let me know. 

My biological mother Ruth Bingham
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her high school yearbook in 1947

My brother Wesley, our mother Ruth, and me
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Notice the resembence?

One of the kids from Youth City who used to be my friend, wrote some details regarding the death of one of the kids at Youth City due to the negligence of then-director J.B. Moore. This child's death was just another "Matter-of-Fact," nonchalant occurrence at Youth City, and barely raised an eyebrow with anyone. His death was one of many that happened at Youth City. He was tasked to take out the trash during a severe thunderstorm. He accidentally touched an electric fence used to keeps the hogs inside their pen. His life ended face down in a large puddle of water. Youth City director J.B. Moore's comments about this event demonstrated the attitude of Youth City staff. "Oh Well!!" The kids at Youth City meant nothing more than dollar signs for J. B. Moore. Millions of dollars of donations were made to Youth City. 80% went to J.B. Moore and his wife. United Way of Coastal Bend made even more money than J.B. Moore. All of the work done by the kids (cotton picking, trash pick-up, etc, etc) was compensated monetarily; but was not given to the kids who did the work. This money went to J.B. Moore and his son Blake Moore. He told the kids that the money was being deposited in to trust funds for the kids. Instead, Blake Moore ran off with all of the money. The way we were treated is very similar to slaves. This was life at Youth City.

As 2014 comes to an end, I want to thank everyone who has helped me with my orphan advocacy. Everyone who donated money. Everyone who sent their words of support. Thank you. 2015 will be a challenging year. Hopefully the US Supreme Court will hear my case and make the right decision; to stop the abuse of America's orphans; and hold those responsible for the abuse, accountable. This would be the best gift they could ever give me. Abuse victims will always be victims. For our government to recognize that orphans are being systematically abused while in the custody of a state; would be astonishing. Please stop for a moment to think about our orphans, and how they are being treated, and ask God to help them.

I just found out from my attorneys and their investigators, that I have 10 siblings (some full blooded, and most half blooded) What an amazing discovery. My mother was a baby-making machine. 

This is the response from the Vatican to Carolyn
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September 2014

Letter from the Vatican to Carolyn translated:

Secretary of State

 

Dear Sister in the Lord

 

We are encouraged by your feelings of filial affection and devotion, that you have been kind enough to write a polite letter to the Holy Father, making him part of your initiatives and projects.

 

Pope Francisco welcomes this cordial closeness, asking him to pray for the fruits of your service to the Church, and its children; while his heart imparts the Apostolic Blessing as a pledge of abundant heavenly favors be upon you.

 

I take this occasion to assure you of my consideration and esteem in Christ.

Vatican response came from Mons. P. B. Wells
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Pope Francis Secretary of State

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Carolyn continues to be a warrior for American orphans

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Fighting for Orphans to this day

My letter to Pope Francis
I wrote the letter in his native language of Spanish.

Dear Holy Father,

 

I was raised as a Catholic orphan in the United States, in the State of Texas. I lived in some of the worst conditions imaginable. I was forced to work hard labor from the age of 6 years old, up to 16. I suffered awful and terrible beatings and sexual abuse at the hands of my caregivers.

 

Throughout this ordeal, I constantly asked God to help me survive. I also asked God many questions; like why nobody wanted me; and why no one loved me. I never got a response from God; at least nothing that I recognized. I made a promise to God and Jesus that if they would help me survive the beatings and sexual abuse, I would help as many orphans as I could. God allowed me to survive this terror. Because of this, I have tried to help as many orphans as possible; one at a time if necessary.

 

I built a website on the internet for other orphans could learn from the help in our society, once they leave the orphanages. My website is called: http://www.thelostchild.org. My website has received 380 million visitors to date. I found a lot of resistance from politicians whom I’ve have asked for help. They do not want to help the orphans. I even asked President Obama to change the laws about how American orphans are treated. He did not answer me. I read that you were an orphan as a child; so I know that you understand what it means to be an orphan. So, I wanted to ask if you can help me with this important mission. I ask for your thoughts and prayers to help stop the terrible treatment of our orphans.

 

I know God hears my prayers for help with this important issue. I will continue fighting for our orphans until my last breath. I am but a humble sinner, and often doubtful that I'll ever see any help. I am only able to help one or two orphans at a time; and I will not ask for help from Catholic churches, since I know the sick and needy seeking refuge are many. Orphans do not seem to be a priority for most people. They are often forgotten, and have no voice in our society.

 

I dreamed about God when I was younger. I dreamed that God was speaking to me, saying that I was doing the right thing by helping orphans. God said to let people see what I was doing and they would help me. Maybe I was just dreaming, but I was convinced it was real. I no longer dream. I stopped having dreams years ago. Now, at age 53, I am convinced that God's dream was real. It’s because of this dream that I continue to help orphans. The devil has also tried to convince me to stop helping the orphans. I refuse to allow Satan to stop my mission.

 

Satan was the cause of my nightmares. As I get older, the nightmares have reduced. I know that even if no one helps me with the orphans, I will continue to help them. One person helping them is better than no one helping. I do not seek recognition for what I've done to help orphans. I do not seek praise. I'm just trying to tell the world that it’s not right to hurt orphans, like Jesus said in, Matthew 18:06  Take heed that you despise not one of these little ones, for I tell you that their angels in heaven always see the face of my heavenly Father." I realize that the problems and the weight of the world are always in your thoughts and prayers, and I have understood that requests for your prayers are many. I hope you find the time to bless this important issue; as only you can. This world is difficult, even for adults; but for an orphan who doesn't have the love and support of a family, it is even more difficult. I want God to give you strength to discuss this critical issue regarding our orphans. I am an orphan, and you're an orphan; and for this, we understand how terrible it can be for a child. The terrible treatment of orphans around the world has not changed in years, and with all of the political disputes and wars being fought; orphans will not be a priority. God bless you; and God bless the orphans.

 

Mrs. Carolyn Sosbee

There are no Federal Laws to ensure that American orphan children are cared for properly; nurtured and nourished adequately. Private orphanages are not operating under any laws. Even though they receive federal money, there is no government agencies monitoring the welfare of orphan children. For example, the Texas Youth Commission (TYC) continues to be wrought with claims of abuse by care-givers. Senior level TYC staff members are paid large salaries, all while molesting children in their care. TYC claims it provides no oversight to privately run orphanages in Texas. In fact, TYC is only concerned about children who have committed crimes; not children who are wards of the State of Texas. Who is the governing body responsible for orphans then? Organizations caring for orphans are receiving money from the State and Federal Government; yet they answer to no one. How is this possible? If you are a ward of the state, who is responsible for making sure you're not being abused or neglected? Why on earth would our government (State and Federal) pay money to a company, then not check in on the welfare of the children? 

TYC monitors children in criminal custody; but they have no responsibility to wards of the state?? Even Foster Parents in Texas are not being monitored, even though they're being paid a lot of money. There continues to be a huge percentage of Foster Parents who molest the children in their care. The children are so afraid to say anything, so the Foster Parents simply continue to abuse, and in some cases, kill these children. Our government make laws. Our President turns around and breaks these laws. When will these criminals be held accountable? Whoever the agency in Texas is responsible for ensuring orphans are cared for properly; should all be fired, and sent to jail; for they have failed their tasks miserably. Voters see what's happening; so everyone can change this during the next election. Don't vote Democrat, or Republican. Vote for the candidate who will fix our broken government. Hold them accountable for the actions. When the people fear the government, we have tyranny. When the government fears the people, we have liberty. Use your voices. Our world is in chaos. God is watching us destroy our planet. God is watching pedophiles molest children. God see's it all. At some point, he will exact his judgment upon us all. We will all have to answer for what we've done; or what we haven't done. If you hear of these businesses who are supposed to care for our orphans; abusing them; say something about it. Don't just turn away from it. Keep in mind that you could be suddenly killed in a traffic accident, and your children could become orphans. It can happen to any of us, at any time. Remember that God is watching.

Carolyn Sosbee
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Just getting back from giving Christmas presents to needy kids

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You know things are getting bad when people are seriously considering the impeachment of Obama. (click here for story):

Obama Impeachment

This article should come as no surprise to anyone who ever lived in Texas:
 
 

Ever wonder what kind of people Texas hires to be Child Protective Services staff? Take a look at this shocking video:
 

***UPDATE***
There have been 7 Presidents of the United States since I started asking for help for American Orphans. None of these Presidents made the plight of Orphans a priority or a concern. Our elected officials continue to thumb their noses at orphan rights and care in the United States. Martin Luther King Jr., gave his life for the cause of civil rights and equality for all; but everyone forgot about the civil rights of American Orphans. American Orphans come in all colors and backgrounds., and many of them are treated worse than the slaves of the past. Even though child labor laws were created to protect kids, orphanages around the country (especially Texas orphans) continue to force children in their care to work hard manual labor to benefit their organizations; not the orphans. It would be nice if someone in Government would speak about this critical issue; but I don't hold out much hope that they will. The American people obviously care about this, but our politicians simply don't consider this to be an important issue. So kids like me will continue to be abused while in the care of their state. Most people know that orphans are abused and mistreated by their care-takers. The stories of abuse and neglect are quite prevalent. Here in Colorado, voters recently recalled 2 State Senators because these Senators stopped listening to the voters. The issue was Gun Control. Unfortunately, our elected officials continue to forget about our orphans, as though things like Gun Control are more important than the abuses and deaths our orphans suffer aren't really that important. There are laws in place to protect our orphans, but they are never enforced. There are agencies who are supposed to oversee Group Homes and Orphanages, but they rarely inspect these facilities. So what are these kids supposed to do? God didn't forget about me while I was an orphan. Gov. Rick Perry tried to cover up that I was a Texas Orphan. I used to ask God to just let me die, so I could escape the abuse I was suffering. This happened to me here in America; and not some foreign country. Any Social Progams for our orphans will cost money to fund, but when our government spends trillions of dollars on pork-belly projects they (not voters) want; it would be very easy to fund some simple orphan care projects to ensure we don't forget about the most vulnerable among us. Hundreds of my readers have suggested a gathering of former orphans. Some have recommended a march on Washington DC, to bring attention to the plight of American orphans. I have the necessary evidence to bring to our governments attention; so at least there is documented case of abuse to show. I'm not trying to bring chaos to America, but with 380 million hits/visits to my website, there are plenty of people who would support such an effort. Thank you everyone for your care and concern.

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**Update**
I've noticed several different petitions making their way through the webisphere for the impeachment of both President Obama, and Texas Governor Rick Perry. It seems that both of their approval ratings have plummeted  to all time lows. I guess Americans are just plain tired of the numerous scandals with Obama; and the "Pay-to-Play" cronyism politics Rick Perry thrives on. I think everyone knows how I feel about both of these guys; so I would strongly recommend to anyone reading this, to sign up for any of the many petitions floating around. If enough people speak up to let Congress know; maybe they'll do something about it.
 
Pres. Obama calls people who were involved in the recent school shooting, but he can't even acknowledge calls to change the way our orphans are treated. He makes comments about Trayvon Martin; but he refuses to say anything about the travesty that is the dysfunctional care orphans receive right here in the US. Gov. Perry refuses to do anything about Texas orphans, all because they are too young to vote, or contribute to his campaign. God is watching all of the abuse these orphans (like me) endure, and even though God warns us in the Bible not to hurt little children; it's clear that our nation doesn't care. I have 360 million hits on my website, so it's clear someone is listening. I will continue to speak up and fight (if necessary) for the rights of orphan children here in the US. I do care about foreign orphans as well, but I think Americans should care for American orphans, before sending their money abroad. I asked Pres. Obama what his thoughts were regarding the way US orphans are being treated/abused, but he refused to respond to me. He refused to respond, because he doesn't care; just like Rick Perry doesn't care.

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I don't know how many of you watch the Steve Wilkos Show. You should take a look at his show when you have a chance. Sometimes, his shows are kinda crazy; but he also has shows about kids being abused, molested and mistreated. For example, today's show had two completely retarded parents, who placed their child in an industrial dryer; kicked the child in the face with steel-toed boots; flicked pennies at the child's head, and yet neither of them felt they had done anything wrong. Where do they find these idiots? As bad as foster care is, these kids would've been better off being in foster care, than with their parents. Hat's off to Steve Wilkos for his advocacy.

 
Read this link, and you'll see the main problem with our judicial system. It's judges; and their arrogance. Many judges have a "God-complex." They think they can do whatever they want to whoever they want, whenever they want, without any retaliation against them. Although my case is not similar to the case mentioned in the link; it does clearly show the same corruption I experienced with the judges involved in my case. One has to wonder if these judges will ever be held accountable for their actions, at least here on earth. It is truly a sad state of affairs.

Don't get me wrong; I have hispanic heritage in my family and my bloodline, who came to the US legally years and years ago. However, I don't care what race someone is, if they break our laws, they must be held accountable. Instead of trying to write new immigration laws; just enforce the ones we already have. What's the purpose of these laws, if they're not enforced. If our current laws aren't enforced, what makes us think new laws will be enforced?

Try to guess who the real minority is in America? You might be surprised.

Current US population by ethnic diversity
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As you can see from the chart, it is the Native American's (the true Americans) who are the true minority. My own Native American heritage is Blackfeet. My husband is Chickasaw. Shortly before Obama was elected to his first-term, he made numerous statements about how he was going to help Native Americans rise from poverty and despair. He has since done little or nothing to fulfill those promises. Thanks to organizations such as the American Indian College Fund, Native Americans are being given opportunities to go to college. Unfortunately, poverty and despair are rampant within tribal communities. Without sufficient opportunities to succeed, this despair will only proliferate. Use your voice, speak up, and tell President Obama to keep his promises. 

Kids - Don't be afraid to tell someone if something bad happens to you; or if someone bad tries to do something bad to you. Don't try to conceal it, as it will only tear you up inside. It may not seem like anyone cares, especially when we have so many government people who don't care about kids anymore; but someone will listen. I asked Pres. Obama several years ago to step-up and help kids; especially kids who have been abused, orphans and foster kids; but he chose not to do anything. His wife just likes to talk about kids who are obese; not kids who have been abused, molested or worse. There are good people out there who will really help you. If the first person you tell doesn't want to help, then ask another, and another. Don't give up. Tell a police officer, tell a school teacher, tell a fireman, tell your doctor.
 
Don't try to get the President to help you. He will not help. God says to turn the other cheek; but if you're being molested or abused; you do not have to allow this to continue. Don't worry about being disowned, since my family did this to me, after I refused to keep my abuse a secret. Anyone abusing you, doesn't deserve you anyway. Some times its better not to have a family. I didn't have a family, and I turned out just fine. Remember, God warns people who hurt kids, that they would be better off wrapping a large stone around their necks, and be thrown in the ocean, than to hurt a child. This has to stop. President Obama will not do anything to help, so long as his own kids are protected. So don't count on him for anything. Hopefully, the American people will find a way to make kids a priority at the next election. In many other countries, paedophiles are immediately executed upon conviction. The US should do the same.
Lord..please help with all the children, especially those being abused, molested, orphaned or in foster care; as they are the most vulnerable among us. Please tell our government to stop protecting paedophiles in the courts, prison and on the street. Amen

Matthew 6 : 5-6
 

6:5 - “When you pray, you shall not be as the hypocrites, for they love to stand and pray in the synagogues and in the corners of the streets, that they may be seen by men. Most certainly, I tell you, they have received their reward.

6:6 - But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.

I think the Preachers of Mega-Churches never used these verses in their sermons. Makes you wonder, huh? I don't think God intended for churches to be businesses. I don't think that's what he had in mind.

Pope Francis and Marilyn Monroe
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Famous Orphans

Did you know that the Prophet Muhammad (Prophet of Islam) was orphaned at age 6?

**30 July 2013**
When the Pope himself has to remind people to exercise "Social Humility" especially when it comes to Orphans and Widows; that really says a lot about our society today. As a society, we're all way too wrapped up in ourselves; our jobs; our interests, that we have forgotten the most vulnerable of all; Orphans! They are without families, without love, without personal guidance; left to their own devices in most cases. More importantly, their "Parent's" (the State that has custody of them) consider them a burden, an added cost, and more trouble than they're worth. This poor attitude about them seems to have proliferated throughout all of government, and down to ordinary citizens. The giant mega-churches dotting American cities; who should be doing more to help orphans, seem more interested in mansions and Cadillacs for their preachers. Take a look at how many States in America have Orphan Programs worthy of mentioning. Do they offer after-care programs; Life-Skills Programs; Education benefits; Therapy, etc? There are no states that offer these essential services. Texas happens to be one of the worst, in terms of how it treats it's Orphans. Texas even tries to cover-up its orphans, in case they're abused and say something to protest.
 
It's going to take ordinary people like you, to stand up and say something. President Obama has made numerous promises, but kept only a few. His promises about the wonderful things he was going to do for Native Americans never panned out. I've personally sent him several letters asking how he could improve American Orphans lives. He answered none of these. It's politics as usual I guess. Since I didn't donate to his campaign, I shouldn't expect a response from him. It's definitely something to think about. I hope each of you reading this will take the time to write to your Congressional representatives, and ask what's being done about this huge problem. I think you'll be surprised when you don't get an answer.

Born to be an Orphan
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Jack and Donna Harris with their son Scotty
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They were going to adopt me in 1973, but changed their mind

Jack and Donna Harris of Corpus Christi Texas took me out of Youth City quite a bit during 1973. They expressed an interest in adopting me. Unfortunately, Donna Harris suddenly changed her mind about adopting me. She didn't want anything to do with me, even though I was only 11 years old. Jack was a great father-figure and quite the opposite from Donna. Once Donna refused to adopt me, I was taken back to Youth City. Of course I was emotionally crushed. I still stay in touch with Jack Harris to this day. Jack divorced Donna a few years after returning me to Youth City.

**Update**
105 children rescued from child prostitution all across the US. The story says that a majority of these kids came out of Foster Care, but it doesn't mention any orphans. This happens because of the lack of after-care for foster kids and orphans once they leave State care. State and Federal government are aware of the risk to these kids, but do nothing about it. These governments don't even track these kids once they leave state custody. They continue to ignore the problem, and things like this will continue to happen.

Carolyn court document shows her birth 28 Jan 1963
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Carolyn new birth certificate shows 23 Jan 1962
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See how easy it is for the State of Texas to manipulate birth records?

Due to their political contributions to various Texas officials; and their relationship with organized criminal elements, the MacKenney's were able to change my birth date without difficulty. How is a person supposed to know how old they are? My biological mother clearly stated my birth date was 28 January 1963, but my new adopted parents changed the date, adding a year to my age. My new adopted mother's birthday was 28 January, and I can only speculate that she didn't want my birthday to be the same as her's. How does someone do this? With money, you can do just about anything. They also changed my son's birth certificate as well; after they kidnapped him from Texas Children's Hospital.
 
Many of the people who adopt orphans today, do so for monetary gain, since the Federal Government offers huge financial incentives to adopting families. In my own neighborhood, a nearby family adopted 6 kids, and they are often overheard bragging that the money they received from the government was used to pay off their house, and the purchases of their new RV and Sport Utility vehicles. People wanting to adopt should do so from their heart; not for the money. The government allows this practice to continue unfortunately. Once these people adopt, noone from the government ever follows-up to ascertain the well-being of these children. In many cases, these children suffer untold abuse at the hands of their new adopted family, just as I did; and noone from the government ever knows about it. People need to speak up about this travesty. Thank you for listening.

Carolyn is now on Twitter. Tweet your thoughts to her @casosbee. Those of you watching the news saw Governor Perry dropping out of the Presidental race. Carolyn kept asking him to explain his record of poor orphan care in his state; and to explain why he is drawing his retirement pension, along with his regular salary; while campaigning for President. Hmmm! The list of illegal activities he is committing continues to grow. Eventually, Texans will wake up. We hope the US Attorney will reveal its investigation results against Rick Perry soon. Carolyn's case will be among these.

*Quote of the month*
"Your worst enemy is often yourself"
 
Watching TV tonight, I saw a show called "Black in America." Some of them made reference to slavery, even though this is 2012. Everyone needs to understand that even white people have been slaves. I was treated by Texas just like a slave; having been forced to work in cotton fields; trash pickup details, and other labor details, without ever being paid one thin dime. I was also beaten regularly, raped by care-takers and abused repeatedly. I have close friends of virtually every race; and don't have a single prejudiced bone in my body; but it saddens me to hear some blacks still making reference to slavery in 2012, when I know they have not been involved in slavery themselves. Skin color has nothing to do with slavery any more.

Carolyn MacKenney Sosbee
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Age 51 March 2013

Carolyn at the lake
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4 July 2013

Carolyn 4th of July
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Prosperity Lake Colorado

One might think that at 51, Carolyn would be slowing down, but they would be wrong. She continues to pursue the State of Texas and the Federal Government to force them to change the current policies governing orphan children in the US.

Carolyn at 51 years old
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March 2013 mild winter in Colorado

Why is it that paedophiles get over? Why do molesting Priests get over? Our society has become so nonchalant about these predators. They live among us, in our neighborhoods, and cities; close to our schools and shopping centers, mingling with our children. Even when their convicted of molesting a child, they are segregated in prisons, protected and treated with care. Our system has forgotten about the victims of these monsters. How do they have any rights? Their victims obviously don't have any rights. Did you know that in the Middle East and other places like China and Russia (even developed countries); once a sexual predator is convicted in court, they are immediately taken to another room, and a 50 cent bullet is fired into their brains. There is no tender care for them. Imagine how much money is being saved by this immediate solution. No appeals, no nothing. It also sets an example for other would-be predators. Unfortunately, our government officials believe that these perverts need to be cared for with gentle hands. Our politicians are almost as dysfunctional. Just look at Anthony Weiner, and Elliot Spitzer, who's infidelity is now on the front page of the news. It's no surprise that they think people will simply forgive them. Washington, and other state governments are full of corrupt politicians. Pres. Clinton set a terrible example for Americans with his sexual antics. Our government needs to take their gloves off when dealing with sexual predators. They can't count on judges to convict the creatures, since there are also judges out there who are sexual predators. Who can you trust? No one apparently. There is only one way to deal with a sexual predator; deal with them in a manner consistent with their crimes as harshly as possible. This would definitely serve as a deterrent for other monsters. Americans need to stand together on this. Children are precious in the eyes of God. They are his favorites. Our system doesn't feel the same about our children unfortunately.  It saddens me to know that I had to go outside my own country to find a law firm that was willing to fight for me and other abused orphans in the US. Wish me luck!!

Carolyn Christmas 2011
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wishing all orphans could tell Gov. Perry what its like to do without Christmas

Carolyn in the snow 2011
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Holding the torch for Texas Orphans

Carolyn playing with Christmas bunny
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Happy Holidays everyone

For every tear, He is there. God hasn't forgotten, so please don't forget the children. Click here and listen as a reminder:

Thank you to all 36 million (and counting) visitors to our website.

We have written another book about the evidence surrounding my case. This book is available on Amazon Kindle and is called "Born to be an Orphan." This book simply shows the evidence we've accumulated over the last few years. I hope you will take the time to read it, and support our cause.

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Carolyn, age 49

Note from Dr. Tommy Sosbee
 
From the first day I married Carolyn, she has refused to stop fighting for her rights, and the rights of other Ward's of the State. 38 years of injustice is a long time for anyone to endure, and a weaker person probably would have succumbed by now. Child Abuse is never justifiable, regardless of who commits it.  She will not be forgotten or ignored. I will see to it that she is not forgotten, and will spare no expense to fight this with her. Happy Holidays.
 
Tommy

Please take a look at Carolyn's movie as a tribute to kids who didn't make it out.

click here to play Carolyn's video

Carolyn's battle for full disclosure continues. She appreciates everyone's support. Her book "Can They Hear Me Crying" will be available online and in bookstores soon, and she would really appreciate you reading this fascinating story.

We have discovered that the investigation and case has experienced some major Texas Government interference. Don't trust the State of Texas as they have their own best interests at heart. Remember what the Bible says:
 
Matthew 18:6 "But whoso shall offend one of these little ones which believe in me, it were better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and that he were drowned in the depth of the sea."""See that you do not despise one of these little ones, for I say to you that their angels in heaven always look upon the face of my heavenly Father."

Matthew 19:14 Jesus said, Suffer little children, and forbid them not, to come unto me: for of such is the kingdom of heaven.

Governor Perry should read this. Don't try to re-victimize victims. Ward's and Orphan's are always forgotten.

Seeing Governor Perry running for President reminds me that Evil still walks among us.

Watching and Waiting
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She cries for those already lost
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Carolyn is fighting to change the law
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***UPDATE***
I have received an overwhelming amount of responses to my website; and it is my intention to try and respond to each of you. I know how difficult it must be for each of you who went through this system at Coastal Bend Youth City, since I went throught it too. I ask that you please try to have patience. I have been fighting for this for 38 years now, and am finally getting the results of these labors. I apologize to each of you that I have not had an opportunity to talk to yet. I know that you are victims, and victims have every right to be pissed off. I have received so many emails from others, with herrendous stories of abuse, rape, and torture. Just remember that God don't make no junk. You are somebody, and you have a voice. Through my on going efforts with the State of Texas, I am demanding a full accounting and disclosure for every child in an institution such as Youth City, and hope to have an official commision assembled shortly that will be able to answer everyone's questions; without any stigma of blame attached. Many of you are describing the inability to locate records from the State that you were ever there. I can assure you that there is most likely a record of your stay located in the archives at the State capital. Also, if you were baptized at any of the local churches around Youth City, there is a record of this as well. That's what I did. Keep the faith and don't give up. I have talked to some of you and have heard that in your desparation, you may have been considering suicide. I ask that you understand that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, and if any of you are religous, you know what suicide will result in regarding your soul. We are a unique group of traumatized individuals, and often we find that even loved ones will not believe our story. We must keep our faith strong and never give up. I hope and pray that each of you will remember what happened, and that this cover-up by the State is coming to an end. Through our efforts we can ensure that this never happens to another child again. Keep them in your thoughts and prayers. I've discovered that many of you were not classified as "Ward's of the State," and if you were at Youth City as a foster child; the State did not have a legal responsibility to maintain any records of your time there. Please leep this in mind when trying to locate documentation.

My website is for all kids who for one reason or another find themselves abandoned, or in State Care. You need to know that you do matter, and that there are people out there who really do care. I will not stop trying to help other kids going through the same system I did. The State of Texas can try to slam the door in my face; but I will keep knocking on the door until someone opens it. Beware of predators; they might seem like a friend who listens, but be careful.
 
The State of Texas must understand that they cannot simply ignore the Ward's of the State in their care. They cannot try to erase their records. They cannot abandon them. They have a life-long responsibility to Ward's of the State, because the State serves as the child's parent. Kids don't just disappear when they push a button. There must be after care as well.

My adoptive mother and father were severe alcoholics; and someone from the State should have seen this during their assessment....Oh wait" the State never conducted an assessment of my adoptive parents because they were wealthy. There is a double standard in Texas when it comes to adopting a child. The State doesn't ask rich candidates questions like; "Are you a pervert," or "Are you a Child Molester," or "Are you a drunk;" but an average couple gets asked these type of questions.

Carolyn - 17 May 2010 - 48 years old
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After meeting with some local kids

I continue to meet with at-risk youth in my local area to let them know that they do have a voice; and to make sure they know that there is always hope.

As you read through my website, you might be asking yourself why someone like me does what I do? Honestly, it's because, unlike the State of Texas, I care about what happens to kids...all kids, not just one or two. I don't ever want to see what happened to me, happen to another child anywhere in the world; and especially not in Texas, or the US. I have been able to develop a very unique sense which allows me to be able to know if someone is a pervert, just by asking them a few questions. As long as the State of Texas continues to hire perverts to care for Ward's of the State, my work will continue. There are literally thousands of people dealing with children at the local, state and federal levels who have somehow slipped through the cracks, and are now somewhere in a position to molest a child. They think that no one knows; or that they won't get caught; but I can promise you (if you're a pervert, and you're reading this) your day is coming. The reason I survived the years of abuse, torture and molestation while I was a Ward of the State; was because I refused to let it beat me. I was determined to fight back and tell anyone who would listen. Unfortunately, when I told Senator Cornyn and Governor Perry, they both tried to act like they were doing something to help; but neither of them did anythng. You might ask how I have been able to stick with this twisted issue for so long; and it's because we can longer afford to ignore these deviant people being placed in charge of Ward's and Orphan's. There a thousands of child care facilities throughout the State of Texas; and most, if not all, operate to make a profit, and not necessarily to take care of children. The State of Texas facilities are no different. Youth City was trying to make money by allowing the children there to work in the fields, and collect revenue for this. The priority should have remained the care of the children.
 
Families considering adoption should be more strenuously screened to ensure they don't have any dirty secrets that might endanger a child. I know that with Judges, Doctors and Lawyers; and even priests being charged with child molestation these days; there needs to be a more rigorous screening performed on any one that may be exposed to a child. This is a very twisted world these perverts live in. It has taken me a lifetime to learn what those tell-tell signs of perversion are. I have also learned that  once your a pervert, you'll always be a pervert. This next step should be to take all of the perverts to an island that can only be reached by plane or aircraft, and leave them there to survive; with all of the other perverts.
 
Over the years, all types of mental doctor tried to figure out why I was angry about what the State of Texas did to me; but their problem was that they had never experienced what I had as a Ward of the State. So how could they analyze me?
 
Today is Mother's Day, and I am with my children and grand-children. My husband is in Iraq doing his part to preserve our freedoms. I survived the State of Texas because I had a strong will to survive, and because I refused to give up.

Houston we have a problem
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Houston Carolyn has landed.
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26 February 2009 - Today we're in Houston Texas meeting my son George. It has been truly amazing to finally see my son after all of the years that have passed. He understands what happened, and how we were separated so many years ago, and how long I have fought to find him.
 
Sadly, after meeting my son George, we quickly realized that he and his girlfriend were only meeting with us for financial gain. It appears as though they were deceptive, and attempted to manipulate the situation for their own personal gain. Once we discovered this, they quickly wanted nothing else to do with us. Clearly it looks my adoptive parents trained him well.
 
Fox26 News asked to see my documentation regarding my fight with the State of Texas, and I felt good that just maybe they might be willing to tell my story; but unfortunately they now have cold feet and are backing out on spreading the word. Such a shame.

I'm waiting to hear from the State. Judge McDaniels couldn't destroy the microfilm the State keeps in its archives. Officer Vera was taped claiming that he found these archived records. He also claimed that he had never seen anything like this case before. He did not know that I was taping his entire conversation. When the State asked me to send my declaration, I wrote 6 pages, and overnight mailed it to Austin Texas. The last phone call I got from Judge McDaniels was that he wanted me to wait until he was dead to publish this issue;  I've seen not only my issues being discussed, but others being discussed as well. I came from trash, and I continue to revel in the essence of the State squirming. When your owned by the State, its important that everyone involved understands their responsibilities and the repercussions of maltreatment. My kids mean more to me than anything. Judge McDaniels  was a bad guy, and wanted to know that his secret was safe. Clearly that is not the case.

Carolyn at age 47 on Presidents Day
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I am very happy to see you George

Carolyn August 2009
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No child should have to suffer
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No child should be abused

My website is dedicated to all children wandering around , hopelessly lost within the Child Welfare System; in institutions; group homes or in foster care. You have a voice if only you use it. It may not seem like it; but eventually someone will hear you.

My name is Carolyn. I spent all of my childhood traveling through the Texas Child Welfare System, from one institution to another; never once having my best interests considered by those in positions of authority. It is for this reason, I decided to create this website; as a venue for others in similar situations.

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After more than a quarter of a century Carolyn continues to keep this in the fore-front of the Texas elected officials.

Carolyn Ann MacKenney at age 46. Mother of 4; Grandmother of three.
 
I have Blackfoot Indian in me, and my husband has Chikasaw indian. in him.

A child should be considered a gift from God. A child does not have a label on it that says, " Throw away when no longer needed." The State of Texas has a great deal of learning to do when it comes to "Ward's of the State."

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The Texas Civil Rights Project rejected my plea for assistance citing limited resources. Don't be discouraged by this..they may be able to handle your specific issue(s).



UPDATE!! As of 5 January 2009, US Senator John Cornyn (Texas-R) turned his Congressional Inquiry results to Texas Governor Rick Perry. I have already received letters from Texas Youth Commissions Chief of Staff stating how apologetic they are for what happened to me while I was a "Ward of the State," but that his agency was not responsible. Hmmmmm! Not quite sure what that means. He does apologize and say that whoever did these awful things to me should be prosecuted to the fullest extent of the law. Clearly the State of Texas is responsible for what happened to me. Child Protective Services put me in Youth City, and the MacKenney's prematurely removed me without court authority. Everyone involved needs to be jailed. Hopefully, we will find out exactly what the state is doing, shortly. Otherwise, I will publish this to every major newspaper in the State of Texas. This would make a lot of people famous, just not the same kind of famous they would like. Wish me luck !!

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Sen. John Cornyn and Texas Gov. Rick Perry

I will try to provide updates on current legislation; lawmakers who are carrying the torch for those like us, and different contact information for those able to assist.

I will try my best to push our lawmakers to create and pass legislation that will protect former "Ward's of the State." Protection should come in many forms; such as free college tuition; free attorney utilization in case litigation is needed, or if compensation is due the ward. Assistance with records searching; to include research involving biological parents in case medical history needs to be ascertained. These and many other forms of protection are crucial to the success of a released "Ward of the State." Interviews with the Attorney General's Office to determine if criminal charges should be filed against offenders who violated the ward's civil rights is essential, so the laws concerning statutes of limitations are met.

You can all see what is happening here. Many of my closest friends keep asking me why I don't have an attorney. Until now, I have been keeping up the good fight by myself. The State has endless resources, and probably feels confident that no attorney in their right mind would go up against them. What the State does not realize, is that I have all of the evidence. So, if there are any attorney's out there willing to stand up for the rights of children to see that this travesty does not happen to another child; please contact me at carolyn@thelostchild.org.

The State of Texas will go to extraordinary measures to protect itself. US Senator John Cornyn (Texas-R) offered to conduct a Congressional Inquiry into abuse; molestation and trauma I suffered as a “Ward of the State of Texas.” He made this offer because he felt strongly that numerous things that were done by the State of Texas were incorrect. During the course of his inquiry, he discovered that the agencies whose job it is to protect and care for “Ward’s of the State,” had actually gone to extensive lengths to destroy official documents, and to cover up any evidence that I was ever a “Ward of the State.”

 

The records detailing my childhood journey to juvenile court, where my adoptive parents gave me to the state, have been destroyed as well. All documentation showing that I was at Coastal Bend Youth City in Driscol Texas was destroyed as well. There is no documentation authorizing my premature removal from Coastal Bend Youth City. All of my records from Social Services case workers visits were also destroyed.

 

Former Kleberg County Judge W.C. McDaniels sexually assaulted me in an office downstairs in the Kleberg County Courthouse, and he would always threaten me by saying that he would send me to the State Home. Finally, when I had had enough of him, I threatened to tell his wife what he was doing to me. He stopped molesting me. He may have had everything to do with the disappearance of my records, as well as my premature removal from State Custody (CBYC), by the very same people that had dropped me off at Juvenile Hall claiming that they were giving me back to the State, 7 years earlier.

 

The sad fact is, Senator Cornyn’s office was given sufficient evidence by me, as well as the primary Texas Youth Commission’s investigator Officer Orlando Vera. Senator Cornyn’s office recently sent a letter to me stating that they did not possess the necessary resources to continue its investigation, but that he had turned things over to Texas Governor Rick Perry’s office. After repeated requests to have his staff explain to me what was going on, I’m being told that “these things take time to investigate.”

 

Fortunately for me, I kept certain documents to clearly prove that I was a resident (captive) of CBYC; and who my House Parent was; photographs of me at CBYC and documents showing that I had been removed while I was still a minor. Sadly, my trust fund from CBYC disappeared with the former CBYC Director J.B. Moore as well. According to a Texas Youth Commission Criminal Analyst, “There is sufficient evidence to conduct an investigation.” The acts that the now deceased Kleberg County Judge W.C. McDaniels committed against me were supposedly turned over to the Kleberg County Sheriff’s Department for investigation, but to date, I have heard nothing from the Sheriff’s Department.

 

What is painfully apparent is that my adoptive parents were able to basically give me to the State of Texas for 7 years, and they did not have to pay a single dime for my care. Then suddenly, as if nothing had ever happened, they showed up at CBYC unannounced, and took me away, with no legal documents, no court order, nothing. Now, Child Protective Services, and Social Services state that they have no documents to verify my existence at CBYC; even though their workers visited me at CBYC from time to time. I guess those visits weren’t documented either.

 

Not only was I raped, molested, beaten, starved and worked like I was on a chain-gang; I also had my supposed earnings stolen from me. I was isolated; not allowed out on outings; never provided dental care or medical care; barely educated, and left with no life skills other than the uncanny knack of staying alive. I have had every door I’ve opened slammed in my face at every level of State Government when I wanted answers.  The sad fact is; I was the victim then, and I remain the victim even today.

 

The State of Texas knows very well that it is wholly responsible for what happened to me while I was a “Ward of the State.” What I have gotten so far is a lot of “It wasn’t me,” or “it wasn’t our department or agency.” The State has refused to speak to my adoptive parents to ascertain exactly how they were able to prematurely remove me from the State’s care without a court order. This has allowed my adoptive parents to flourish and continue their deception. CBYC was forced to close in 2004 under horrible conditions. My former House Parent now lives in a nursing home with Alzheimer’s disease, and doesn’t even remember her own name. Former Judge W.C. McDaniels is also deceased, as is the former Director of CBYC J.B. Moore.

 

Where are all the records of the kids who were forced to survive in that awful place called Coastal Bend Youth City? Where are all of my records? My journey through this system began in the early 70’s, and should have been well-documented. The year I spent in Harris County Juvenile Hall; my court appearance in front of a Juvenile Court Judge where my adopted parents relinquished their custody of me; Child Protective Services escorting me to CBYC in Driscoll Texas; 5 years at CBYC; Bishop ISD school records; numerous visits with social workers at CBYC; numerous visits with Judge W.C. McDaniels, and ultimately my premature removal from CBYC by my adopted parents.

 

There appears to have been a concerted effort on the part of the State of Texas, to destroy any records of my time spent in their care, or their facilities. When I returned to CBYC in 1992 and spoke with the Director Ron Rossi, he stated that my records had been taken out behind the facility and burned. He also stated that he had no idea about my trust fund, or who might have handled it. Going back to CBYC was horrific for me, and took me some time to get over. I don’t think I will ever really be over it. The state knows that I was at CBYC, but they cannot determine how I left there.

 

At the very least, the State of Texas owes me an apology for what happened. It should also compensate me for my stolen trust fund (with interest), and compensation for the torture and abuse I suffered while making the journey through their system. The people of the State of Texas would shudder to know that things like this are happening right under their noses. What do you think the Governor and the Senator would do if this had happened to their child? My website is for those like me who have somehow fallen into the cracks that make up the Child Welfare System of Texas.

 

It is for the child who has somehow gotten lost in the bureaucracy and red tape, and who is now only a number or a statistic. The State of Texas has a difficult time admitting that it did something wrong, but the more people who read this, and talk to their elected officials, surely there can and will be some kind of response.

 

***Update***

On 15 January 2009 Texas Governor Rick Perry’s office informed me that while what happened to me was reprehensible and unimaginable, the fact of the matter is, TYC was not responsible for Coastal Bend Youth City, and therefore this matter was closed. Wow, that’s hard to believe. Child Protective Services took me to CBYC and left me there for 5 years. Is CPS not a State agency, and why would they take a Ward of the State to a facility not under the scrutiny of the State; not bound by State Child Care policies and Regulations? Additionally, US Senator John Cornyn (Texas-R) staff informed me of roughly the same thing. Because CBYC was not a TYC operated facility, and that only occasionally did CPS bring kids to CBYC; then there was nothing more they could do.

 

When a child becomes a Ward of the State; the State essentially becomes the child’s guardian or parent. They are obligated to ensure that child’s best interests are served at all times. They are also obligated to ensure that the child is protected; not abused, nurtured, educated and cared for. I was not protected; I was abused severely; I was not educated nor cared for. So, on all counts, the State of Texas failed me, and they continue to fail me. It seems as though political survival is more important to these two elected officials. They have both shown me who they really are, and how much they really care.

 

How does the State of Texas find out that something like this happened, and simply say, “So”? It is completely ridiculous. I may have been born in Texas, but right now I’m glad I no longer live in Texas. Please don’t let these elected officials and State agencies get away with this. If this happened to you, would you stop trying to fight this? One thing I am certain of is that I will never stop trying to help other children in similar situations. The truth is right under our noses. The State of Texas was essentially my parent for 7 years, and now they act as though they have disowned me, or turned their back on me. My adoptive parents were abusing me shortly after adopting me, which ended up being the reason they relinquished their custody of me.

 

Why would the State allow me to return to the very same abuse 7 years later, without allowing the matter to go back to court? It clearly shows that my best interests were not considered. It’s as though I had no rights. If a normal parent did to their child, what the state and my adoptive parents did to me, they would be put under the jail. I have no help, no shoulder to cry on, nothing. I am on my own when it comes to fighting the State. The good people of the State of Texas have a powerful voice. If they will speak out about this to their elected officials, perhaps they can stop this from happening to another child. The really sad fact is, my adopted parents didn’t get into any trouble for what they did to me, because the State played in role in my records being destroyed, and if the State tried to get my adopted parents in trouble, they have to arrest themselves too

The State of Texas does not have the right to judge me; it should instead judge itself, for what it has allowed to permeate for 30 years. Once it decided to knowingly destroy official documents; it became an immediate accomplice to this massive crime. It deserves to be treated no better than the common criminal would be.

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Can They Hear Me Crying? (c) 2015 Carolyn Ann MacKenney Sosbee