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Live your life in the way of Christ
God knows what's in your heart

Why is there so much hatred? Why are so many of our young people being killed. God says there is no prejudice in heaven. However, some preachers and Presidents try to foment hatred between races. Jesus says,  ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’ There is no other commandment greater than these.” Clearly this is an important commandment. So why is it ignored by so many? Why does Reverend Sharpton (and some churches) preach hatred? Why does President Obama speak after a black teen is killed by a white Police Officer; but says nothing when a white teen is killed by a black Police Officer? There is a great divide in our nation, and it goes all the way to the presidency. Follow the teachings of Christ, and this divide will get smaller. Why can't all races march together to convince others to love one another? Remember, there is no prejudice in heaven. In order to get to heaven, live your life in the way of the Lord. Amen!

"God, I'm trying to help you." Carolyn Sosbee 

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When children are being abused Angels are watching
Do not abuse a child. Not all angels are nice.

I want to say a few things about the terrible treatment our military veterans are being given now. My husband served for 23 years. When we were first married, it was much different. We got free dental care for the entire family; free prescriptions, and free medical care. Now, we have to pay for the dental care; pay for the prescriptions; and pay for the medical care. It takes weeks, if not months to get an appointment to be seen This is how our military veterans are being treated. Of course Medicaid (for Welfare) has no cost for medical care; $1.00 for prescriptions, and no cost for dental services. Seems a little backward doesn't it. Whatever happened to Sen. John McCain and the Armed Services Committee? Oh, I know! President Obama (military hating president) must've gotten to him. When my husband joined the military back in 1980, he was promised lifetime medical care. My husband isn't dead; but the promise made to him and 1000's of others, has died. Even if my husband tries to use the VA Healthcare System; it isn't free either; plus it took over 3 months for the VA to return his calls. With each passing day, we're seeing more and more of our benefits being taken away. We're watching other military veterans suffering and dying, due to the terrible lack of healthcare. Military veterans have given so much for their country; but our country refuses to give them what they were promised. This is not the same as entitlements such as food stamps and welfare. This is about our government lying to its veterans. One of our friends who served 12 years in the Army, is now suffering from Brain Cancer. He makes $900 per month in disability payments. He tried to apply for food stamps, and the El Paso County Food Stamp Office here in Colorado Springs told him he only qualified for $15.00 per month in food stamps. The $900 he makes in disability is used to pay his rent. So what is he supposed to eat with? He is slowly starving to death, in addition to dying from Brain Cancer. He is but one of many veterans in the same situation. Sadly, while our friend was being told he only qualified for $15.00 per month; he was standing next to an illegal immigrant family (man and woman); who was awarded $400 per month in food stamps. How ironic is that? Think really hard before you recommend to any of your loved ones to serve in our military. All they will get is heartbreak and sorrow. Tell your congressional representatives about this travesty. Have you seen the story about Chris Kyle (American Sniper) the US Navy Seal credited with the most kills in history. He was a true American Hero; and yet, President Obama didn't bother to even send his condolences to Kyle's family after he was murdered. That same President Obama who wouldn't do anything for the Kyle Family, sent his presidential condolences to a rapper who was killed in a drive-by shooting. It just goes to show everyone how much the President hates the military. I want to thank every veteran for their service and sacrifice, for our freedom.

After I provided testimony to Texas regarding the mistreatment of children at Youth City; it finally closed its doors in 2003. It also closed a painful chapter in my life, and in the lives of so many others who survived the torture of Youth City. We had hoped that the facility would be demolished, but unfortunately the stewards of the property and the compound itself had other plans. Over the last few years, the facility morphed in to various different care facilities such as a Drug Treatment Facility; Senior Care Facility, etc. As you can see from the pictures below, the transformation is dramatic. Now, with President Obama opening our borders to whoever wants to cross it; the compound is being used to house illegal immigrants. Thanks a lot President Obama. Wonder who's paying for all of this? I vote that the place be demolished. What do the rest of you think? I know that there are dead children buried there. For the living children there, it was like living in hell. This place was Satan's domain. It was pure evil. Just look at the 2011 photo. Satan lives there. Tear the place down, or turn it into a church. Ask any child who ever lived there, and they will tell you about the evil that lives there among them. 90 years of kids being abused and tortured. Satan definitely had a role to play there. I felt it, and so did many others. God took some of the lucky ones who died there; but the rest of us had to live with the evil there. It was a city of evil. Why do think it was called "Youth City." Amen.

Old Youth City Campus in 2011
Today its being used to house Illegal Immigrants

Youth City in Driscoll Texas in the old days
This is what it looked like when I was there

Ruth Maurie Bingham ultimately had 22 kids all together. From my Biological father John Whitbeck, they had 3 children together. My older brother Wesley W. Whitbeck, me and our younger brother Tracy Leroy Whitbeck. Before my father passed away, he told me that our sister "Wendy" was not his child. Out of 22 siblings; 14 are still alive. If anyone out there has a photograph of John Warren Whitbeck of San Antonio, please let me know. 

My biological mother Ruth Bingham
her high school yearbook in 1947

My brother Wesley, our mother Ruth, and me
Notice the resembence?

One of the kids from Youth City who used to be my friend, wrote some details regarding the death of one of the kids at Youth City due to the negligence of then-director J.B. Moore. This child's death was just another "Matter-of-Fact," nonchalant occurrence at Youth City, and barely raised an eyebrow with anyone. His death was one of many that happened at Youth City. He was tasked to take out the trash during a severe thunderstorm. He accidentally touched an electric fence used to keeps the hogs inside their pen. His life ended face down in a large puddle of water. Youth City director J.B. Moore's comments about this event demonstrated the attitude of Youth City staff. "Oh Well!!" The kids at Youth City meant nothing more than dollar signs for J. B. Moore. Millions of dollars of donations were made to Youth City. 80% went to J.B. Moore and his wife. United Way of Coastal Bend made even more money than J.B. Moore. All of the work done by the kids (cotton picking, trash pick-up, etc, etc) was compensated monetarily; but was not given to the kids who did the work. This money went to J.B. Moore and his son Blake Moore. He told the kids that the money was being deposited in to trust funds for the kids. Instead, Blake Moore ran off with all of the money. The way we were treated is very similar to slaves. This was life at Youth City.

As 2014 comes to an end, I want to thank everyone who has helped me with my orphan advocacy. Everyone who donated money. Everyone who sent their words of support. Thank you. 2015 will be a challenging year. Hopefully the US Supreme Court will hear my case and make the right decision; to stop the abuse of America's orphans; and hold those responsible for the abuse, accountable. This would be the best gift they could ever give me. Abuse victims will always be victims. For our government to recognize that orphans are being systematically abused while in the custody of a state; would be astonishing. Please stop for a moment to think about our orphans, and how they are being treated, and ask God to help them.

I just found out from my attorneys and their investigators, that I have 22 siblings (some full blooded, and most half blooded) What an amazing discovery. My mother was a baby-making machine. There is a show called "19 and counting" but my mother beats this record by far. That's a lot of kids! From the results of the investigation, me and my brother are the only true blood children from our father. 14 alive, and 8 deceased. President Obama's executive order will certainly make things more difficult. There will be much more orphans from this decision.

This is the response from the Vatican to Carolyn
September 2014

Letter from the Vatican to Carolyn translated:

Secretary of State


Dear Sister in the Lord


We are encouraged by your feelings of filial affection and devotion, that you have been kind enough to write a polite letter to the Holy Father, making him part of your initiatives and projects.


Pope Francisco welcomes this cordial closeness, asking him to pray for the fruits of your service to the Church, and its children; while his heart imparts the Apostolic Blessing as a pledge of abundant heavenly favors be upon you.


I take this occasion to assure you of my consideration and esteem in Christ.

Vatican response came from Mons. P. B. Wells
Pope Francis Secretary of State

Carolyn continues to be a warrior for American orphans

Fighting for Orphans to this day

My letter to Pope Francis
I wrote the letter in his native language of Spanish.

Dear Holy Father,


I was raised as a Catholic orphan in the United States, in the State of Texas. I lived in some of the worst conditions imaginable. I was forced to work hard labor from the age of 6 years old, up to 16. I suffered awful and terrible beatings and sexual abuse at the hands of my caregivers.


Throughout this ordeal, I constantly asked God to help me survive. I also asked God many questions; like why nobody wanted me; and why no one loved me. I never got a response from God; at least nothing that I recognized. I made a promise to God and Jesus that if they would help me survive the beatings and sexual abuse, I would help as many orphans as I could. God allowed me to survive this terror. Because of this, I have tried to help as many orphans as possible; one at a time if necessary.


I built a website on the internet for other orphans could learn from the help in our society, once they leave the orphanages. My website is called: My website has received 380 million visitors to date. I found a lot of resistance from politicians whom I’ve have asked for help. They do not want to help the orphans. I even asked President Obama to change the laws about how American orphans are treated. He did not answer me. I read that you were an orphan as a child; so I know that you understand what it means to be an orphan. So, I wanted to ask if you can help me with this important mission. I ask for your thoughts and prayers to help stop the terrible treatment of our orphans.


I know God hears my prayers for help with this important issue. I will continue fighting for our orphans until my last breath. I am but a humble sinner, and often doubtful that I'll ever see any help. I am only able to help one or two orphans at a time; and I will not ask for help from Catholic churches, since I know the sick and needy seeking refuge are many. Orphans do not seem to be a priority for most people. They are often forgotten, and have no voice in our society.


I dreamed about God when I was younger. I dreamed that God was speaking to me, saying that I was doing the right thing by helping orphans. God said to let people see what I was doing and they would help me. Maybe I was just dreaming, but I was convinced it was real. I no longer dream. I stopped having dreams years ago. Now, at age 53, I am convinced that God's dream was real. It’s because of this dream that I continue to help orphans. The devil has also tried to convince me to stop helping the orphans. I refuse to allow Satan to stop my mission.


Satan was the cause of my nightmares. As I get older, the nightmares have reduced. I know that even if no one helps me with the orphans, I will continue to help them. One person helping them is better than no one helping. I do not seek recognition for what I've done to help orphans. I do not seek praise. I'm just trying to tell the world that it’s not right to hurt orphans, like Jesus said in, Matthew 18:06  Take heed that you despise not one of these little ones, for I tell you that their angels in heaven always see the face of my heavenly Father." I realize that the problems and the weight of the world are always in your thoughts and prayers, and I have understood that requests for your prayers are many. I hope you find the time to bless this important issue; as only you can. This world is difficult, even for adults; but for an orphan who doesn't have the love and support of a family, it is even more difficult. I want God to give you strength to discuss this critical issue regarding our orphans. I am an orphan, and you're an orphan; and for this, we understand how terrible it can be for a child. The terrible treatment of orphans around the world has not changed in years, and with all of the political disputes and wars being fought; orphans will not be a priority. God bless you; and God bless the orphans.


Mrs. Carolyn Sosbee

There are no Federal Laws to ensure that American orphan children are cared for properly; nurtured and nourished adequately. Private orphanages are not operating under any laws. Even though they receive federal money, there is no government agencies monitoring the welfare of orphan children. For example, the Texas Youth Commission (TYC) continues to be wrought with claims of abuse by care-givers. Senior level TYC staff members are paid large salaries, all while molesting children in their care. TYC claims it provides no oversight to privately run orphanages in Texas. In fact, TYC is only concerned about children who have committed crimes; not children who are wards of the State of Texas. Who is the governing body responsible for orphans then? Organizations caring for orphans are receiving money from the State and Federal Government; yet they answer to no one. How is this possible? If you are a ward of the state, who is responsible for making sure you're not being abused or neglected? Why on earth would our government (State and Federal) pay money to a company, then not check in on the welfare of the children? 

TYC monitors children in criminal custody; but they have no responsibility to wards of the state?? Even Foster Parents in Texas are not being monitored, even though they're being paid a lot of money. There continues to be a huge percentage of Foster Parents who molest the children in their care. The children are so afraid to say anything, so the Foster Parents simply continue to abuse, and in some cases, kill these children. Our government make laws. Our President turns around and breaks these laws. When will these criminals be held accountable? Whoever the agency in Texas is responsible for ensuring orphans are cared for properly; should all be fired, and sent to jail; for they have failed their tasks miserably. Voters see what's happening; so everyone can change this during the next election. Don't vote Democrat, or Republican. Vote for the candidate who will fix our broken government. Hold them accountable for the actions. When the people fear the government, we have tyranny. When the government fears the people, we have liberty. Use your voices. Our world is in chaos. God is watching us destroy our planet. God is watching pedophiles molest children. God see's it all. At some point, he will exact his judgment upon us all. We will all have to answer for what we've done; or what we haven't done. If you hear of these businesses who are supposed to care for our orphans; abusing them; say something about it. Don't just turn away from it. Keep in mind that you could be suddenly killed in a traffic accident, and your children could become orphans. It can happen to any of us, at any time. Remember that God is watching.

Carolyn Sosbee
Just getting back from giving Christmas presents to needy kids

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You know things are getting bad when people are seriously considering the impeachment of Obama. (click here for story):

Obama Impeachment

This article should come as no surprise to anyone who ever lived in Texas:

Ever wonder what kind of people Texas hires to be Child Protective Services staff? Take a look at this shocking video:

With the pending Washington shutdown, many American's are unaware of just how complicated and one-sided the Affordable Care Act, aka ObamaCare really is. It is time for every American to ask President Obama just how much his healthcare plan is going to costs ordinary Americans. Who is going to pay for the healthcare for the 11 million illegal aliens in America? I seriously doubt that too many of you have had the time to read the 7 foot high ObamaCare Plan, in order to better understand how it's going to impact you personally; or how much you'll have to pay in taxes to provide coverage for the illegal aliens here in the US. Here are a couple of articles that help explain how ObamaCare might effect you personally: and:, and:
Why should hard working Americans in any state (already strapped and struggling to make ends meet) be forced to pay for the healthcare for illegal aliens?
Of course, the Obama Administration doesn't want us to know about this travesty. By the way, do you remember voting for ObamaCare? I don't. You know that things in Washington are grim when Obama promises the Mexican Government Food Stamps to its citizens:, and:
Do average Americans know about these massive commitments made to illegal aliens by President Obama? Did average Americans have a chance to vote yes or no on these programs that will use American tax dollars? Our elected officials have done little to nothing to stem the rampant spending thats out of control in Washington DC. Take a look at just how bad it really is:
President Obama promised to stop this earmark abuse, but has done nothing to make this happen. I fear that with the massive budget deficit we're facing, Washington's answer to this is to keep printing more money. This will only serve to further de-value our currency; and it may force nations like China to demand collateral for the massive loans they've made to America. It's just a matter of time before the dollar collapses. How will our government guarantee these loans China made to the US? It's definitely something to think about. Our government is lying to its citizens. So long as government officials continue voting themselves pay raises, and world class healthcare for themselves; they will continue to lie to us. Former orphans like me understand that government officials like ours will never commit themselves to orphan reform because it doesn't translate to financial gains for themselves. This is why all of the government doors were slammed in our faces when we asked for help. I was told to contact a priest when I wanted copies of my adoption records. Why do I need to talk to a priest? This is just an example of how idiotic the system really is. It is a huge pill to swallow for all of us. Tell me your thoughts about all of this. In spite of all of the evil around us, my faith in God will remain intact. Hopefully there is someone in Washington who will stand up for what's right without being biased.

There have been 7 Presidents of the United States since I started asking for help for American Orphans. None of these Presidents made the plight of Orphans a priority or a concern. Our elected officials continue to thumb their noses at orphan rights and care in the United States. Martin Luther King Jr., gave his life for the cause of civil rights and equality for all; but everyone forgot about the civil rights of American Orphans. American Orphans come in all colors and backgrounds., and many of them are treated worse than the slaves of the past. Even though child labor laws were created to protect kids, orphanages around the country (especially Texas orphans) continue to force children in their care to work hard manual labor to benefit their organizations; not the orphans. It would be nice if someone in Government would speak about this critical issue; but I don't hold out much hope that they will. The American people obviously care about this, but our politicians simply don't consider this to be an important issue. So kids like me will continue to be abused while in the care of their state. Most people know that orphans are abused and mistreated by their care-takers. The stories of abuse and neglect are quite prevalent. Here in Colorado, voters recently recalled 2 State Senators because these Senators stopped listening to the voters. The issue was Gun Control. Unfortunately, our elected officials continue to forget about our orphans, as though things like Gun Control are more important than the abuses and deaths our orphans suffer aren't really that important. There are laws in place to protect our orphans, but they are never enforced. There are agencies who are supposed to oversee Group Homes and Orphanages, but they rarely inspect these facilities. So what are these kids supposed to do? God didn't forget about me while I was an orphan. Gov. Rick Perry tried to cover up that I was a Texas Orphan. I used to ask God to just let me die, so I could escape the abuse I was suffering. This happened to me here in America; and not some foreign country. Any Social Progams for our orphans will cost money to fund, but when our government spends trillions of dollars on pork-belly projects they (not voters) want; it would be very easy to fund some simple orphan care projects to ensure we don't forget about the most vulnerable among us. Hundreds of my readers have suggested a gathering of former orphans. Some have recommended a march on Washington DC, to bring attention to the plight of American orphans. I have the necessary evidence to bring to our governments attention; so at least there is documented case of abuse to show. I'm not trying to bring chaos to America, but with 380 million hits/visits to my website, there are plenty of people who would support such an effort. Thank you everyone for your care and concern.


I've noticed several different petitions making their way through the webisphere for the impeachment of both President Obama, and Texas Governor Rick Perry. It seems that both of their approval ratings have plummeted  to all time lows. I guess Americans are just plain tired of the numerous scandals with Obama; and the "Pay-to-Play" cronyism politics Rick Perry thrives on. I think everyone knows how I feel about both of these guys; so I would strongly recommend to anyone reading this, to sign up for any of the many petitions floating around. If enough people speak up to let Congress know; maybe they'll do something about it.
Pres. Obama calls people who were involved in the recent school shooting, but he can't even acknowledge calls to change the way our orphans are treated. He makes comments about Trayvon Martin; but he refuses to say anything about the travesty that is the dysfunctional care orphans receive right here in the US. Gov. Perry refuses to do anything about Texas orphans, all because they are too young to vote, or contribute to his campaign. God is watching all of the abuse these orphans (like me) endure, and even though God warns us in the Bible not to hurt little children; it's clear that our nation doesn't care. I have 360 million hits on my website, so it's clear someone is listening. I will continue to speak up and fight (if necessary) for the rights of orphan children here in the US. I do care about foreign orphans as well, but I think Americans should care for American orphans, before sending their money abroad. I asked Pres. Obama what his thoughts were regarding the way US orphans are being treated/abused, but he refused to respond to me. He refused to respond, because he doesn't care; just like Rick Perry doesn't care.


I don't know how many of you watch the Steve Wilkos Show. You should take a look at his show when you have a chance. Sometimes, his shows are kinda crazy; but he also has shows about kids being abused, molested and mistreated. For example, today's show had two completely retarded parents, who placed their child in an industrial dryer; kicked the child in the face with steel-toed boots; flicked pennies at the child's head, and yet neither of them felt they had done anything wrong. Where do they find these idiots? As bad as foster care is, these kids would've been better off being in foster care, than with their parents. Hat's off to Steve Wilkos for his advocacy.

Read this link, and you'll see the main problem with our judicial system. It's judges; and their arrogance. Many judges have a "God-complex." They think they can do whatever they want to whoever they want, whenever they want, without any retaliation against them. Although my case is not similar to the case mentioned in the link; it does clearly show the same corruption I experienced with the judges involved in my case. One has to wonder if these judges will ever be held accountable for their actions, at least here on earth. It is truly a sad state of affairs.

Don't get me wrong; I have hispanic heritage in my family and my bloodline, who came to the US legally years and years ago. However, I don't care what race someone is, if they break our laws, they must be held accountable. Instead of trying to write new immigration laws; just enforce the ones we already have. What's the purpose of these laws, if they're not enforced. If our current laws aren't enforced, what makes us think new laws will be enforced?

Try to guess who the real minority is in America? You might be surprised.

Current US population by ethnic diversity

As you can see from the chart, it is the Native American's (the true Americans) who are the true minority. My own Native American heritage is Blackfeet. My husband is Chickasaw. Shortly before Obama was elected to his first-term, he made numerous statements about how he was going to help Native Americans rise from poverty and despair. He has since done little or nothing to fulfill those promises. Thanks to organizations such as the American Indian College Fund, Native Americans are being given opportunities to go to college. Unfortunately, poverty and despair are rampant within tribal communities. Without sufficient opportunities to succeed, this despair will only proliferate. Use your voice, speak up, and tell President Obama to keep his promises. 

Kids - Don't be afraid to tell someone if something bad happens to you; or if someone bad tries to do something bad to you. Don't try to conceal it, as it will only tear you up inside. It may not seem like anyone cares, especially when we have so many government people who don't care about kids anymore; but someone will listen. I asked Pres. Obama several years ago to step-up and help kids; especially kids who have been abused, orphans and foster kids; but he chose not to do anything. His wife just likes to talk about kids who are obese; not kids who have been abused, molested or worse. There are good people out there who will really help you. If the first person you tell doesn't want to help, then ask another, and another. Don't give up. Tell a police officer, tell a school teacher, tell a fireman, tell your doctor.
Don't try to get the President to help you. He will not help. God says to turn the other cheek; but if you're being molested or abused; you do not have to allow this to continue. Don't worry about being disowned, since my family did this to me, after I refused to keep my abuse a secret. Anyone abusing you, doesn't deserve you anyway. Some times its better not to have a family. I didn't have a family, and I turned out just fine. Remember, God warns people who hurt kids, that they would be better off wrapping a large stone around their necks, and be thrown in the ocean, than to hurt a child. This has to stop. President Obama will not do anything to help, so long as his own kids are protected. So don't count on him for anything. Hopefully, the American people will find a way to make kids a priority at the next election. In many other countries, paedophiles are immediately executed upon conviction. The US should do the same.
Lord..please help with all the children, especially those being abused, molested, orphaned or in foster care; as they are the most vulnerable among us. Please tell our government to stop protecting paedophiles in the courts, prison and on the street. Amen

Matthew 6 : 5-6

6:5 - “When you pray, you shall not be as the hypocrites, for they love to stand and pray in the synagogues and in the corners of the streets, that they may be seen by men. Most certainly, I tell you, they have received their reward.

6:6 - But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.

I think the Preachers of Mega-Churches never used these verses in their sermons. Makes you wonder, huh? I don't think God intended for churches to be businesses. I don't think that's what he had in mind.

Pope Francis and Marilyn Monroe
Famous Orphans

Did you know that the Prophet Muhammad (Prophet of Islam) was orphaned at age 6?

**30 July 2013**
When the Pope himself has to remind people to exercise "Social Humility" especially when it comes to Orphans and Widows; that really says a lot about our society today. As a society, we're all way too wrapped up in ourselves; our jobs; our interests, that we have forgotten the most vulnerable of all; Orphans! They are without families, without love, without personal guidance; left to their own devices in most cases. More importantly, their "Parent's" (the State that has custody of them) consider them a burden, an added cost, and more trouble than they're worth. This poor attitude about them seems to have proliferated throughout all of government, and down to ordinary citizens. The giant mega-churches dotting American cities; who should be doing more to help orphans, seem more interested in mansions and Cadillacs for their preachers. Take a look at how many States in America have Orphan Programs worthy of mentioning. Do they offer after-care programs; Life-Skills Programs; Education benefits; Therapy, etc? There are no states that offer these essential services. Texas happens to be one of the worst, in terms of how it treats it's Orphans. Texas even tries to cover-up its orphans, in case they're abused and say something to protest.
It's going to take ordinary people like you, to stand up and say something. President Obama has made numerous promises, but kept only a few. His promises about the wonderful things he was going to do for Native Americans never panned out. I've personally sent him several letters asking how he could improve American Orphans lives. He answered none of these. It's politics as usual I guess. Since I didn't donate to his campaign, I shouldn't expect a response from him. It's definitely something to think about. I hope each of you reading this will take the time to write to your Congressional representatives, and ask what's being done about this huge problem. I think you'll be surprised when you don't get an answer.

Why aren't there better news channels? All of the news channels like CNN, etc change shows every 30-45 minutes, and each of them tell the same stories over and over again. I think it's terrible. Just tell us the new stories once, and move on to something else.

Born to be an Orphan
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Jack and Donna Harris with their son Scotty
They were going to adopt me in 1973, but changed their mind

Jack and Donna Harris of Corpus Christi Texas took me out of Youth City quite a bit during 1973. They expressed an interest in adopting me. Unfortunately, Donna Harris suddenly changed her mind about adopting me. She didn't want anything to do with me, even though I was only 11 years old. Jack was a great father-figure and quite the opposite from Donna. Once Donna refused to adopt me, I was taken back to Youth City. Of course I was emotionally crushed. I still stay in touch with Jack Harris to this day. Jack divorced Donna a few years after returning me to Youth City.

105 children rescued from child prostitution all across the US. The story says that a majority of these kids came out of Foster Care, but it doesn't mention any orphans. This happens because of the lack of after-care for foster kids and orphans once they leave State care. State and Federal government are aware of the risk to these kids, but do nothing about it. These governments don't even track these kids once they leave state custody. They continue to ignore the problem, and things like this will continue to happen.

Carolyn court document shows her birth 28 Jan 1963

Carolyn new birth certificate shows 23 Jan 1962
See how easy it is for the State of Texas to manipulate birth records?

Due to their political contributions to various Texas officials; and their relationship with organized criminal elements, the MacKenney's were able to change my birth date without difficulty. How is a person supposed to know how old they are? My biological mother clearly stated my birth date was 28 January 1963, but my new adopted parents changed the date, adding a year to my age. My new adopted mother's birthday was 28 January, and I can only speculate that she didn't want my birthday to be the same as her's. How does someone do this? With money, you can do just about anything. They also changed my son's birth certificate as well; after they kidnapped him from Texas Children's Hospital.
Many of the people who adopt orphans today, do so for monetary gain, since the Federal Government offers huge financial incentives to adopting families. In my own neighborhood, a nearby family adopted 6 kids, and they are often overheard bragging that the money they received from the government was used to pay off their house, and the purchases of their new RV and Sport Utility vehicles. People wanting to adopt should do so from their heart; not for the money. The government allows this practice to continue unfortunately. Once these people adopt, noone from the government ever follows-up to ascertain the well-being of these children. In many cases, these children suffer untold abuse at the hands of their new adopted family, just as I did; and noone from the government ever knows about it. People need to speak up about this travesty. Thank you for listening.

Why is the US Government spending so much time and money on trying to make new laws to help with Gun Control? Why don't they just enforce the existing laws? Everyone wanting to buy a gun should go through a background check, regardless of where they buy the gun. Felons and mental people should not be allowed to buy guns, no matter what. Criminals are going to buy guns from other criminals regardless of the laws. Law Abiding citizens who leave guns unsecure in their homes, so kids can access them should be prosecuted to the fullest extent of the law. There should be no preferential treatment for anyone, including law enforcement and military personnel; since they flip out and go crazy too. Focus the new laws on putting child molesters and paedophiles away for life; or exterminating them before our tax dollars are spent caring for them for life. Everyone is saddens about Aurora Colorado, Sandy Hook Elementary, and many other places where crazy people commit mass murder; but the real question should be "Where did these crazy people get the guns they used?"
Enforce our current laws! Quit trying to make new ones. Position some ATF agents at gun shows to enforce background checks before a gun purchase can be made; and make sure the gun vendors have background checks too.
As long as psychiatrist keep prescribing mind altering drugs to kids, which give the child suicidal thoughts, we should expect kids to behave the same way some of these shooters did. I believe that boot-camp works wonders; before trying mind-altering drugs on kids. As soon as mental professionals discover someone with homicidal tendencies; they should immediately notify law enforcement. The government should let grandparents intervene with these troubled kids, especially when both parents are dysfunctional. Grandparents are more mature, and have a way of instilling discipline, without abusing kids. Give grandparents a chance.
By the way, whatever happened to the welfare-to-work programs? Instead of granting generational welfare benefits to families; limit these benefits as an incentive to return to work. Otherwise, grandparents; parents, then their adult children will continue to sit at home drawing benefits for life. There has to be a way to get people back to work. President Obama continues to use the welfare benefits to expand his base of constituents. Shame on him.

I think that every law student graduating from Law School, should have to work on cases for the poor and indigent before being allowed to start charging legal fees. This should be considered mandatory servitude to teach them humility and humanity. Poor people trying to locate pro-bono legal services often encounter months/year long waiting lists to access these services; or they are never able to access them. Agencies such as Social Services, CPS and other have legal counsel on their staff, to protect them when they make big mistakes; but poor people have no one. If poor people could have access to legal services before big problems arise, it will certainly help reduce problems before they escalate. In many cases, CPS and Social Services act as Judge, Jury and Executioner, and can ruin entire families, just based on their own opinions. As we have witnessed many times, many of the case workers in CPS and Social Services are former drug addicts, alcoholics, who are apparently recovered, and have been given positions in these agencies to help with their recovery. How does being a recovering addict qualify someone to be a case worker?? It doesn't. In many cases, families rights are being denied or violated because of case worker ignorance, or lack of knowledge. Where are these case workers training and qualifications? They are nonexistent in many cases. We know of a case worker who was formerly strung-out on dope, who was given free housing, then given a job as an intake specialist at Social Services, with zero qualifications. She still sells illicit drugs, even while being employed as an intake specialist. This system is broken for this to be allowed. No one has looked into this problem to care enough about fixing it. Using people coming out of rehabilitation is clearly not the answer. They should use qualified and school trained people. Child Protective Services does not protect kids. They have another agenda. We have seen some CPS staff sitting on the floor eating free food with endangered children. How is this protective? It's not. These individuals tell management what they want to hear; and these individuals are the ones teaching classes to at-risk kids, or young adults. That's not really setting a proper example is it. Meanwhile these CPS workers often fly under the CPS radar with their own kids. How ironic is that? Its the same as having a wolf minding the sheep. How can this be in the best interest of the child? It's not! This is our system for protecting children; its broken and dysfunctional.

Carolyn is now on Twitter. Tweet your thoughts to her @casosbee. Those of you watching the news saw Governor Perry dropping out of the Presidental race. Carolyn kept asking him to explain his record of poor orphan care in his state; and to explain why he is drawing his retirement pension, along with his regular salary; while campaigning for President. Hmmm! The list of illegal activities he is committing continues to grow. Eventually, Texans will wake up. We hope the US Attorney will reveal its investigation results against Rick Perry soon. Carolyn's case will be among these.

*Quote of the month*
"Your worst enemy is often yourself"
Watching TV tonight, I saw a show called "Black in America." Some of them made reference to slavery, even though this is 2012. Everyone needs to understand that even white people have been slaves. I was treated by Texas just like a slave; having been forced to work in cotton fields; trash pickup details, and other labor details, without ever being paid one thin dime. I was also beaten regularly, raped by care-takers and abused repeatedly. I have close friends of virtually every race; and don't have a single prejudiced bone in my body; but it saddens me to hear some blacks still making reference to slavery in 2012, when I know they have not been involved in slavery themselves. Skin color has nothing to do with slavery any more.

Carolyn MacKenney Sosbee
Age 51 March 2013

Carolyn at the lake
4 July 2013

Carolyn 4th of July
Prosperity Lake Colorado

One might think that at 51, Carolyn would be slowing down, but they would be wrong. She continues to pursue the State of Texas and the Federal Government to force them to change the current policies governing orphan children in the US.

Carolyn at 51 years old
March 2013 mild winter in Colorado

Why is it that paedophiles get over? Why do molesting Priests get over? Our society has become so nonchalant about these predators. They live among us, in our neighborhoods, and cities; close to our schools and shopping centers, mingling with our children. Even when their convicted of molesting a child, they are segregated in prisons, protected and treated with care. Our system has forgotten about the victims of these monsters. How do they have any rights? Their victims obviously don't have any rights. Did you know that in the Middle East and other places like China and Russia (even developed countries); once a sexual predator is convicted in court, they are immediately taken to another room, and a 50 cent bullet is fired into their brains. There is no tender care for them. Imagine how much money is being saved by this immediate solution. No appeals, no nothing. It also sets an example for other would-be predators. Unfortunately, our government officials believe that these perverts need to be cared for with gentle hands. Our politicians are almost as dysfunctional. Just look at Anthony Weiner, and Elliot Spitzer, who's infidelity is now on the front page of the news. It's no surprise that they think people will simply forgive them. Washington, and other state governments are full of corrupt politicians. Pres. Clinton set a terrible example for Americans with his sexual antics. Our government needs to take their gloves off when dealing with sexual predators. They can't count on judges to convict the creatures, since there are also judges out there who are sexual predators. Who can you trust? No one apparently. There is only one way to deal with a sexual predator; deal with them in a manner consistent with their crimes as harshly as possible. This would definitely serve as a deterrent for other monsters. Americans need to stand together on this. Children are precious in the eyes of God. They are his favorites. Our system doesn't feel the same about our children unfortunately.  It saddens me to know that I had to go outside my own country to find a law firm that was willing to fight for me and other abused orphans in the US. Wish me luck!!

Carolyn Christmas 2011
wishing all orphans could tell Gov. Perry what its like to do without Christmas

Carolyn in the snow 2011
Holding the torch for Texas Orphans

Carolyn playing with Christmas bunny
Happy Holidays everyone

For every tear, He is there. God hasn't forgotten, so please don't forget the children. Click here and listen as a reminder:

Thank you to all 36 million (and counting) visitors to our website.

We have written another book about the evidence surrounding my case. This book is available on Amazon Kindle and is called "Born to be an Orphan." This book simply shows the evidence we've accumulated over the last few years. I hope you will take the time to read it, and support our cause.

Carolyn, age 49

Note from Dr. Tommy Sosbee
From the first day I married Carolyn, she has refused to stop fighting for her rights, and the rights of other Ward's of the State. 38 years of injustice is a long time for anyone to endure, and a weaker person probably would have succumbed by now. Child Abuse is never justifiable, regardless of who commits it.  She will not be forgotten or ignored. I will see to it that she is not forgotten, and will spare no expense to fight this with her. Happy Holidays.

Please take a look at Carolyn's movie as a tribute to kids who didn't make it out.

click here to play Carolyn's video

Carolyn's battle for full disclosure continues. She appreciates everyone's support. Her book "Can They Hear Me Crying" will be available online and in bookstores soon, and she would really appreciate you reading this fascinating story.

We have discovered that the investigation and case has experienced some major Texas Government interference. Don't trust the State of Texas as they have their own best interests at heart. Remember what the Bible says:
Matthew 18:6 "But whoso shall offend one of these little ones which believe in me, it were better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and that he were drowned in the depth of the sea."""See that you do not despise one of these little ones, for I say to you that their angels in heaven always look upon the face of my heavenly Father."

Matthew 19:14 Jesus said, Suffer little children, and forbid them not, to come unto me: for of such is the kingdom of heaven.

Governor Perry should read this. Don't try to re-victimize victims. Ward's and Orphan's are always forgotten.

Seeing Governor Perry running for President reminds me that Evil still walks among us.

Watching and Waiting

She cries for those already lost
Carolyn is fighting to change the law

I have received an overwhelming amount of responses to my website; and it is my intention to try and respond to each of you. I know how difficult it must be for each of you who went through this system at Coastal Bend Youth City, since I went throught it too. I ask that you please try to have patience. I have been fighting for this for 38 years now, and am finally getting the results of these labors. I apologize to each of you that I have not had an opportunity to talk to yet. I know that you are victims, and victims have every right to be pissed off. I have received so many emails from others, with herrendous stories of abuse, rape, and torture. Just remember that God don't make no junk. You are somebody, and you have a voice. Through my on going efforts with the State of Texas, I am demanding a full accounting and disclosure for every child in an institution such as Youth City, and hope to have an official commision assembled shortly that will be able to answer everyone's questions; without any stigma of blame attached. Many of you are describing the inability to locate records from the State that you were ever there. I can assure you that there is most likely a record of your stay located in the archives at the State capital. Also, if you were baptized at any of the local churches around Youth City, there is a record of this as well. That's what I did. Keep the faith and don't give up. I have talked to some of you and have heard that in your desparation, you may have been considering suicide. I ask that you understand that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, and if any of you are religous, you know what suicide will result in regarding your soul. We are a unique group of traumatized individuals, and often we find that even loved ones will not believe our story. We must keep our faith strong and never give up. I hope and pray that each of you will remember what happened, and that this cover-up by the State is coming to an end. Through our efforts we can ensure that this never happens to another child again. Keep them in your thoughts and prayers. I've discovered that many of you were not classified as "Ward's of the State," and if you were at Youth City as a foster child; the State did not have a legal responsibility to maintain any records of your time there. Please leep this in mind when trying to locate documentation.

My website is for all kids who for one reason or another find themselves abandoned, or in State Care. You need to know that you do matter, and that there are people out there who really do care. I will not stop trying to help other kids going through the same system I did. The State of Texas can try to slam the door in my face; but I will keep knocking on the door until someone opens it. Beware of predators; they might seem like a friend who listens, but be careful.
The State of Texas must understand that they cannot simply ignore the Ward's of the State in their care. They cannot try to erase their records. They cannot abandon them. They have a life-long responsibility to Ward's of the State, because the State serves as the child's parent. Kids don't just disappear when they push a button. There must be after care as well.

My adoptive mother and father were severe alcoholics; and someone from the State should have seen this during their assessment....Oh wait" the State never conducted an assessment of my adoptive parents because they were wealthy. There is a double standard in Texas when it comes to adopting a child. The State doesn't ask rich candidates questions like; "Are you a pervert," or "Are you a Child Molester," or "Are you a drunk;" but an average couple gets asked these type of questions.

Carolyn - 17 May 2010 - 48 years old
After meeting with some local kids

I continue to meet with at-risk youth in my local area to let them know that they do have a voice; and to make sure they know that there is always hope.

As you read through my website, you might be asking yourself why someone like me does what I do? Honestly, it's because, unlike the State of Texas, I care about what happens to kids...all kids, not just one or two. I don't ever want to see what happened to me, happen to another child anywhere in the world; and especially not in Texas, or the US. I have been able to develop a very unique sense which allows me to be able to know if someone is a pervert, just by asking them a few questions. As long as the State of Texas continues to hire perverts to care for Ward's of the State, my work will continue. There are literally thousands of people dealing with children at the local, state and federal levels who have somehow slipped through the cracks, and are now somewhere in a position to molest a child. They think that no one knows; or that they won't get caught; but I can promise you (if you're a pervert, and you're reading this) your day is coming. The reason I survived the years of abuse, torture and molestation while I was a Ward of the State; was because I refused to let it beat me. I was determined to fight back and tell anyone who would listen. Unfortunately, when I told Senator Cornyn and Governor Perry, they both tried to act like they were doing something to help; but neither of them did anythng. You might ask how I have been able to stick with this twisted issue for so long; and it's because we can longer afford to ignore these deviant people being placed in charge of Ward's and Orphan's. There a thousands of child care facilities throughout the State of Texas; and most, if not all, operate to make a profit, and not necessarily to take care of children. The State of Texas facilities are no different. Youth City was trying to make money by allowing the children there to work in the fields, and collect revenue for this. The priority should have remained the care of the children.
Families considering adoption should be more strenuously screened to ensure they don't have any dirty secrets that might endanger a child. I know that with Judges, Doctors and Lawyers; and even priests being charged with child molestation these days; there needs to be a more rigorous screening performed on any one that may be exposed to a child. This is a very twisted world these perverts live in. It has taken me a lifetime to learn what those tell-tell signs of perversion are. I have also learned that  once your a pervert, you'll always be a pervert. This next step should be to take all of the perverts to an island that can only be reached by plane or aircraft, and leave them there to survive; with all of the other perverts.
Over the years, all types of mental doctor tried to figure out why I was angry about what the State of Texas did to me; but their problem was that they had never experienced what I had as a Ward of the State. So how could they analyze me?
Today is Mother's Day, and I am with my children and grand-children. My husband is in Iraq doing his part to preserve our freedoms. I survived the State of Texas because I had a strong will to survive, and because I refused to give up.

Houston we have a problem

Houston Carolyn has landed.

26 February 2009 - Today we're in Houston Texas meeting my son George. It has been truly amazing to finally see my son after all of the years that have passed. He understands what happened, and how we were separated so many years ago, and how long I have fought to find him.
Sadly, after meeting my son George, we quickly realized that he and his girlfriend were only meeting with us for financial gain. It appears as though they were deceptive, and attempted to manipulate the situation for their own personal gain. Once we discovered this, they quickly wanted nothing else to do with us. Clearly it looks my adoptive parents trained him well.
Fox26 News asked to see my documentation regarding my fight with the State of Texas, and I felt good that just maybe they might be willing to tell my story; but unfortunately they now have cold feet and are backing out on spreading the word. Such a shame.

I'm waiting to hear from the State. Judge McDaniels couldn't destroy the microfilm the State keeps in its archives. Officer Vera was taped claiming that he found these archived records. He also claimed that he had never seen anything like this case before. He did not know that I was taping his entire conversation. When the State asked me to send my declaration, I wrote 6 pages, and overnight mailed it to Austin Texas. The last phone call I got from Judge McDaniels was that he wanted me to wait until he was dead to publish this issue;  I've seen not only my issues being discussed, but others being discussed as well. I came from trash, and I continue to revel in the essence of the State squirming. When your owned by the State, its important that everyone involved understands their responsibilities and the repercussions of maltreatment. My kids mean more to me than anything. Judge McDaniels  was a bad guy, and wanted to know that his secret was safe. Clearly that is not the case.

Carolyn at age 47 on Presidents Day
I am very happy to see you George

Carolyn August 2009

No child should have to suffer
No child should be abused

My website is dedicated to all children wandering around , hopelessly lost within the Child Welfare System; in institutions; group homes or in foster care. You have a voice if only you use it. It may not seem like it; but eventually someone will hear you.

My name is Carolyn. I spent all of my childhood traveling through the Texas Child Welfare System, from one institution to another; never once having my best interests considered by those in positions of authority. It is for this reason, I decided to create this website; as a venue for others in similar situations.


After more than a quarter of a century Carolyn continues to keep this in the fore-front of the Texas elected officials.

Carolyn Ann MacKenney at age 46. Mother of 4; Grandmother of three.
I have Blackfoot Indian in me, and my husband has Chikasaw indian. in him.

A child should be considered a gift from God. A child does not have a label on it that says, " Throw away when no longer needed." The State of Texas has a great deal of learning to do when it comes to "Ward's of the State."

What's New?

The Texas Civil Rights Project rejected my plea for assistance citing limited resources. Don't be discouraged by this..they may be able to handle your specific issue(s).

UPDATE!! As of 5 January 2009, US Senator John Cornyn (Texas-R) turned his Congressional Inquiry results to Texas Governor Rick Perry. I have already received letters from Texas Youth Commissions Chief of Staff stating how apologetic they are for what happened to me while I was a "Ward of the State," but that his agency was not responsible. Hmmmmm! Not quite sure what that means. He does apologize and say that whoever did these awful things to me should be prosecuted to the fullest extent of the law. Clearly the State of Texas is responsible for what happened to me. Child Protective Services put me in Youth City, and the MacKenney's prematurely removed me without court authority. Everyone involved needs to be jailed. Hopefully, we will find out exactly what the state is doing, shortly. Otherwise, I will publish this to every major newspaper in the State of Texas. This would make a lot of people famous, just not the same kind of famous they would like. Wish me luck !!

Sen. John Cornyn and Texas Gov. Rick Perry

I will try to provide updates on current legislation; lawmakers who are carrying the torch for those like us, and different contact information for those able to assist.

I will try my best to push our lawmakers to create and pass legislation that will protect former "Ward's of the State." Protection should come in many forms; such as free college tuition; free attorney utilization in case litigation is needed, or if compensation is due the ward. Assistance with records searching; to include research involving biological parents in case medical history needs to be ascertained. These and many other forms of protection are crucial to the success of a released "Ward of the State." Interviews with the Attorney General's Office to determine if criminal charges should be filed against offenders who violated the ward's civil rights is essential, so the laws concerning statutes of limitations are met.

You can all see what is happening here. Many of my closest friends keep asking me why I don't have an attorney. Until now, I have been keeping up the good fight by myself. The State has endless resources, and probably feels confident that no attorney in their right mind would go up against them. What the State does not realize, is that I have all of the evidence. So, if there are any attorney's out there willing to stand up for the rights of children to see that this travesty does not happen to another child; please contact me at

The State of Texas will go to extraordinary measures to protect itself. US Senator John Cornyn (Texas-R) offered to conduct a Congressional Inquiry into abuse; molestation and trauma I suffered as a “Ward of the State of Texas.” He made this offer because he felt strongly that numerous things that were done by the State of Texas were incorrect. During the course of his inquiry, he discovered that the agencies whose job it is to protect and care for “Ward’s of the State,” had actually gone to extensive lengths to destroy official documents, and to cover up any evidence that I was ever a “Ward of the State.”


The records detailing my childhood journey to juvenile court, where my adoptive parents gave me to the state, have been destroyed as well. All documentation showing that I was at Coastal Bend Youth City in Driscol Texas was destroyed as well. There is no documentation authorizing my premature removal from Coastal Bend Youth City. All of my records from Social Services case workers visits were also destroyed.


Former Kleberg County Judge W.C. McDaniels sexually assaulted me in an office downstairs in the Kleberg County Courthouse, and he would always threaten me by saying that he would send me to the State Home. Finally, when I had had enough of him, I threatened to tell his wife what he was doing to me. He stopped molesting me. He may have had everything to do with the disappearance of my records, as well as my premature removal from State Custody (CBYC), by the very same people that had dropped me off at Juvenile Hall claiming that they were giving me back to the State, 7 years earlier.


The sad fact is, Senator Cornyn’s office was given sufficient evidence by me, as well as the primary Texas Youth Commission’s investigator Officer Orlando Vera. Senator Cornyn’s office recently sent a letter to me stating that they did not possess the necessary resources to continue its investigation, but that he had turned things over to Texas Governor Rick Perry’s office. After repeated requests to have his staff explain to me what was going on, I’m being told that “these things take time to investigate.”


Fortunately for me, I kept certain documents to clearly prove that I was a resident (captive) of CBYC; and who my House Parent was; photographs of me at CBYC and documents showing that I had been removed while I was still a minor. Sadly, my trust fund from CBYC disappeared with the former CBYC Director J.B. Moore as well. According to a Texas Youth Commission Criminal Analyst, “There is sufficient evidence to conduct an investigation.” The acts that the now deceased Kleberg County Judge W.C. McDaniels committed against me were supposedly turned over to the Kleberg County Sheriff’s Department for investigation, but to date, I have heard nothing from the Sheriff’s Department.


What is painfully apparent is that my adoptive parents were able to basically give me to the State of Texas for 7 years, and they did not have to pay a single dime for my care. Then suddenly, as if nothing had ever happened, they showed up at CBYC unannounced, and took me away, with no legal documents, no court order, nothing. Now, Child Protective Services, and Social Services state that they have no documents to verify my existence at CBYC; even though their workers visited me at CBYC from time to time. I guess those visits weren’t documented either.


Not only was I raped, molested, beaten, starved and worked like I was on a chain-gang; I also had my supposed earnings stolen from me. I was isolated; not allowed out on outings; never provided dental care or medical care; barely educated, and left with no life skills other than the uncanny knack of staying alive. I have had every door I’ve opened slammed in my face at every level of State Government when I wanted answers.  The sad fact is; I was the victim then, and I remain the victim even today.


The State of Texas knows very well that it is wholly responsible for what happened to me while I was a “Ward of the State.” What I have gotten so far is a lot of “It wasn’t me,” or “it wasn’t our department or agency.” The State has refused to speak to my adoptive parents to ascertain exactly how they were able to prematurely remove me from the State’s care without a court order. This has allowed my adoptive parents to flourish and continue their deception. CBYC was forced to close in 2004 under horrible conditions. My former House Parent now lives in a nursing home with Alzheimer’s disease, and doesn’t even remember her own name. Former Judge W.C. McDaniels is also deceased, as is the former Director of CBYC J.B. Moore.


Where are all the records of the kids who were forced to survive in that awful place called Coastal Bend Youth City? Where are all of my records? My journey through this system began in the early 70’s, and should have been well-documented. The year I spent in Harris County Juvenile Hall; my court appearance in front of a Juvenile Court Judge where my adopted parents relinquished their custody of me; Child Protective Services escorting me to CBYC in Driscoll Texas; 5 years at CBYC; Bishop ISD school records; numerous visits with social workers at CBYC; numerous visits with Judge W.C. McDaniels, and ultimately my premature removal from CBYC by my adopted parents.


There appears to have been a concerted effort on the part of the State of Texas, to destroy any records of my time spent in their care, or their facilities. When I returned to CBYC in 1992 and spoke with the Director Ron Rossi, he stated that my records had been taken out behind the facility and burned. He also stated that he had no idea about my trust fund, or who might have handled it. Going back to CBYC was horrific for me, and took me some time to get over. I don’t think I will ever really be over it. The state knows that I was at CBYC, but they cannot determine how I left there.


At the very least, the State of Texas owes me an apology for what happened. It should also compensate me for my stolen trust fund (with interest), and compensation for the torture and abuse I suffered while making the journey through their system. The people of the State of Texas would shudder to know that things like this are happening right under their noses. What do you think the Governor and the Senator would do if this had happened to their child? My website is for those like me who have somehow fallen into the cracks that make up the Child Welfare System of Texas.


It is for the child who has somehow gotten lost in the bureaucracy and red tape, and who is now only a number or a statistic. The State of Texas has a difficult time admitting that it did something wrong, but the more people who read this, and talk to their elected officials, surely there can and will be some kind of response.



On 15 January 2009 Texas Governor Rick Perry’s office informed me that while what happened to me was reprehensible and unimaginable, the fact of the matter is, TYC was not responsible for Coastal Bend Youth City, and therefore this matter was closed. Wow, that’s hard to believe. Child Protective Services took me to CBYC and left me there for 5 years. Is CPS not a State agency, and why would they take a Ward of the State to a facility not under the scrutiny of the State; not bound by State Child Care policies and Regulations? Additionally, US Senator John Cornyn (Texas-R) staff informed me of roughly the same thing. Because CBYC was not a TYC operated facility, and that only occasionally did CPS bring kids to CBYC; then there was nothing more they could do.


When a child becomes a Ward of the State; the State essentially becomes the child’s guardian or parent. They are obligated to ensure that child’s best interests are served at all times. They are also obligated to ensure that the child is protected; not abused, nurtured, educated and cared for. I was not protected; I was abused severely; I was not educated nor cared for. So, on all counts, the State of Texas failed me, and they continue to fail me. It seems as though political survival is more important to these two elected officials. They have both shown me who they really are, and how much they really care.


How does the State of Texas find out that something like this happened, and simply say, “So”? It is completely ridiculous. I may have been born in Texas, but right now I’m glad I no longer live in Texas. Please don’t let these elected officials and State agencies get away with this. If this happened to you, would you stop trying to fight this? One thing I am certain of is that I will never stop trying to help other children in similar situations. The truth is right under our noses. The State of Texas was essentially my parent for 7 years, and now they act as though they have disowned me, or turned their back on me. My adoptive parents were abusing me shortly after adopting me, which ended up being the reason they relinquished their custody of me.


Why would the State allow me to return to the very same abuse 7 years later, without allowing the matter to go back to court? It clearly shows that my best interests were not considered. It’s as though I had no rights. If a normal parent did to their child, what the state and my adoptive parents did to me, they would be put under the jail. I have no help, no shoulder to cry on, nothing. I am on my own when it comes to fighting the State. The good people of the State of Texas have a powerful voice. If they will speak out about this to their elected officials, perhaps they can stop this from happening to another child. The really sad fact is, my adopted parents didn’t get into any trouble for what they did to me, because the State played in role in my records being destroyed, and if the State tried to get my adopted parents in trouble, they have to arrest themselves too

The State of Texas does not have the right to judge me; it should instead judge itself, for what it has allowed to permeate for 30 years. Once it decided to knowingly destroy official documents; it became an immediate accomplice to this massive crime. It deserves to be treated no better than the common criminal would be.

Please get in touch with any comments or reactions to my site.

Can They Hear Me Crying? (c) 2010 Carolyn Ann MacKenney Sosbee